Day 8- prologue.
So it's over.
Had a small meal last night; bowl of frosted mini wheats, and some pizza a while later when I felt I could handle it. possibly the best meal I've ever had. probably have another small meal tonight as well. Didn't get sick as I was afraid I would, which was also good.
I feel horrible though. I thought when this was over I would have some sense of achieving some goal. This has not been the case. I feel like I've failed somehow. I don't think this fast has changed me in any way for the better. I think all I've accomplished is alienating myself from the people I care about for a week. I think the mere act of hoping this would inspire some change and finding it really hasn't has made me even more cynical and negative than ever.
Good job idiot.
Oh well.
Had a small meal last night; bowl of frosted mini wheats, and some pizza a while later when I felt I could handle it. possibly the best meal I've ever had. probably have another small meal tonight as well. Didn't get sick as I was afraid I would, which was also good.
I feel horrible though. I thought when this was over I would have some sense of achieving some goal. This has not been the case. I feel like I've failed somehow. I don't think this fast has changed me in any way for the better. I think all I've accomplished is alienating myself from the people I care about for a week. I think the mere act of hoping this would inspire some change and finding it really hasn't has made me even more cynical and negative than ever.
Good job idiot.
Oh well.