{fic} The love began in a small café chapter 10 FINAL
Yo
I am back with my final chapter.
God it took me ages to think of something i was soooooo blank. But now its finished thanks to the help of Fluffy - chuuuuuuu - and i hope i can make her also happy because she was a little bit upset by the way the thing went on.
BUT now its finished and i really hope that everyone who reads it will like it.
AND i would like to thank everyone who read it and commented on it. It made me really happy that so many people followed my fic.
I will write more so i hope that you will check out that too. Yoroshiku.
Enogh of my useless talk here we go enjoy my last chapter.
CHUUUUUUUUU
HISA
Chapter 10 - Final
“Tadaima, Kazu.”
“…”
Koki was standing at the door, he was wearing black trousers, purple and white coloured sneakers, he had a pullover which was a mix of purple, white and black with some skulls printed on, underneath he only had a white t-shirt. He wore 3 golden necklaces and one black one. His hair now was longer then before and it had a slightly lighter colour then before. He looked really hot but cute at the same time. (Refer to this http://s681.photobucket.com/albums/vv179/zelpetra001/Koki/?action=view¤t=20.jpg I know it’s a wig but still I just love this pic)
Kazuya was just standing there not able to utter a word, looking at Koki. He didn’t know what he should feel at that moment; he didn’t know what to do. Koki didn’t dare to say something he knew that when he would Kazuya would start yelling, it is understandable he wouldn’t even be surprised if he would just throw him out right now and tell him no to show up before him ever again. But he was hoping that they could have a conversation and talk about what happened in the past. After a painful long silence Kazuya turned around to finish his job. Koki got the message, he didn’t want to see him and talk to him. He was about to leave when Kazuya asked the question he wanted to have an answer for 2 years.
“Why?”
Koki stopped he hand was already touching the knob to open the door. He stopped lowered his hand, he didn’t wanted to turn around because he knew that Kazuya was now looking at him. Yes Kazuya was now looking at Koki’s back, with the saddest expression a person can ever have. Koki inhaled a big amount of air maybe that will give him the courage he will need now. He turned around and looked directly in Kazuya’s eyes. They were both looking at each other
“Kazu…I…”
“Why? I don’t want to hear anything else tell me something which will answer this question which I was asking myself for 2 years now.” The last part was a little bit louder then the rest. Kazuya started to become angry.
“Kazu…”
“Koki just answer that stupid simple question. You should have an answer for it if you left me just like that.”
“I am sorry Kazu.”
“No Koki no sorry tell me the reason” Kazuya started to cry, he couldn’t take it anymore, everything came back to him. The time when Jin told him everything, when he was waiting for him in the park, his love for him, the pain he felt, the tears he shed, but he was on the way of recovering from it. He started a new life without him, but now he is back and is standing right in front of him. He just can’t take it, it is too much. Kazuya clenched his shirt he was feeling if he was suffocated he fell on his knees; his face was covered with tears. He looked up at Koki.
“Why Koki, why did you leave and why are you back now? Please answer…” Kazuya’s voice was giving up. He looked down he couldn’t stand the sight of Koki. It broke his heart again. He loved him, he never loved someone so much as he loved him, but then he left and his heart broke into peaces, and now again he is breaking him. WHY. That was the only question for him. WHY. He asked himself that everyday, till today. He could never forger about him. Still now he is in love but he just can’t forget the pain he felt because of him.
Pain and love are only separated by a small tried. If there is love then there is pain too, because if you wouldn’t love you wouldn’t fell pain after it.
Koki couldn’t see his love like this, he fell on his knees crying. He couldn’t say a word. He just couldn’t answer his question because he was asking himself the question WHY for 2 years now.
WHY did I leave like that?
WHY didn’t I explain?
WHY didn’t I say goodbye?
WHY didn’t I try to connect him earlier?
WHY….
“I…sorry…Kazu…I…myself…don’t…know…the answer for that question, because I have been asking myself that question for 2 years everyday.”
Kazuya looked at him. Trying to understand what he is saying, but it was way to much for him to take. Both of them were in tears. No other word was spoken between them for minutes, but that silence was again broken by Kazuya.
“Please Koki leave. I can’t take this, it’s too much. I just don’t understand why you came back right now and I think that I don’t want to understand. You broke my heart which you filled with love and now I don’t know what I feel. I am confused. I started a new life now without you and now you are back. It’s too much. Please…Please…” Kazuya was in tears again, he couldn’t say anything anymore.
“I understand. I will leave you alone. - He took out a paper and put it on one of the tables - this is my number and my new address. I will be living in Tokyo again. If you can forgive me or if you just want to talk about everything, then you are more then welcome. But if not, which I understands fully then throw this paper away and forget that I was ever here.” He turned around and grabbed the knob of the door, he opened it a little. Kazuya was now looking at his back and then a paper which he left behind. Koki stopped before going out if the café. “But there is something else I want to tell you. - he didn’t turn around when he said it - I still love you, I never stopped loving you and I will never be able to love someone else, just you - Koki turned his face to look at Kazuya but just for a few seconds, Koki’s face showed a painfully sad face. And then he left, without saying anything else. The door closed behind him. Kazuya started to cry again.
“W…h…y…” He doesn’t know how long he was there sitting and crying. He doesn’t want to know, he already cried so much because of him “I still love you” That one sentence rang in his head non-stop. Koki said that he still loves him. He took the paper from the table, he looked at it but he doesn’t know what he will do with it. Does he still love Koki? Yes he does, he loves him still the same way as he did 2 years ago. Can he talk to him about the past? He doesn’t know. Can he forgive him? That is something he really doesn’t know. Is he ready for the things Koki has to say? Is he willing to let Koki love him again? Is he able to love Koki again without thinking about the past?
There were so many questions which he couldn’t answer.
“What should I do?”
-----
The next day around noon, Koki made a visit at Jin’s atelier they had a lot to talk, but Koki didn’t know how Jin would react. Even tough they were best friends Koki left without saying anything to Jin and he only connected him twice in those 2 years. The first one was after 2 months he left. Only a short message on the phone: Sorry for leaving like that. I am alive; I am doing fine, please take good care of Kazu. Jya.
Jin didn’t reply to the message he was so pissed off as he saw it he even broke on of his cameras, he was really angry and he throw it to the wall.
The second time was a month ago: Yo. How are you doing? I hope you are fine. I am coming back to Tokyo and not just for visiting. I hope we can meet and talk.
This time Jin answered him and he wrote down the address of his atelier and told him to come here and then they can talk.
Koki arrived at the atelier he was hesitating to go in, but he knew that they have a lot to talk about and it’s better to get over with it now. He didn’t want to leave like that and he didn’t want to loose his lover and best friend. Now at least he wants to clear the things with his best friend.
Koki knocked on the door, the moment the door opened a guy for him unknown opened it.
“Hai, can I help you.”
“Konichiwa, I am Tanaka I came to see Akanishi-san…”
“Ryo, dare?”
“Oh, Jin its Tanaka-san he came to see you.”
Koki could see Jin now he was standing not so far from the door. He looked shocked but he motioned with his hand that Ryo should let him in. Ryo did so.
“Dozo, Tanaka-san.”
“Arigatou.” Koki bowed a little bit to the other man.
The moment Koki got in the atelier and he was standing in the middle of the room. Jin was looking out of the window with his back facing Koki. But that didn’t stay long he turn around and the next moment Koki was sitting on the ground touching his chin which was hit really hard just a second ago. Ryo was standing with a shocked expression. Jin didn’t look at Ryo but he asked him to leave them alone, to go and get the material they will need for tomorrow. Ryo did so, he knew that it’s better to leave; he felt that there is some unfinished business between them. Jin wasn’t the type of person to hit someone without a word, so he knew that something must have happened between them.
Jin was standing over Koki, who was still sitting on the ground caressing his shortly hit chin.
“You got better in hitting.”
“…” Jin didn’t answer.
Koki didn’t dare to look at his friend but if he would have he would have seen the tears falling down on Jin’s face. Jin pulled on the collar of Koki shirt, pulling him up to stand. Koki still didn’t look in his eyes.
“Fuck Koki look at me.” And the next moment Koki was on the ground again. The second hit. This was harder, full with Jin’s emotions: hurt, pain and tears.
Jin fell on his knees now crying out loud. He looked at Koki who was now looking at him. Koki eyes were filled with tears too. Both of them were looking at each other in silence for a long time, but Jin broke the silence. He stood up turned his back but then turn around again. He was angry he started to shout at Koki.
“Fuck, Koki. Why didn’t you tell me? Why didn’t you tell me anything? I am your fucking best friend. You don’t trust me that much. Why did you leave like that?”
Both of them were unaware of the two people standing near the door. Ueda and Kazuya came to visit Jin in they lunch time. They do that a lot but it would have been better if they didn’t do that today.
“…Fuck Koki, say something.”
“…”
“Koki, please - Jin was now crying and looking with pleading eyes at his friend - Koki fuck why did I have to find out everything from your brother? Why didn’t you tell us?”
There was still no answer.
The two boys at the door where standing there confused, they didn’t know what Jin was talking about but it didn’t take long and the truth came on the surface.
Jin calmed down a little bit he wasn’t shouting but in his voice you could hear that he was hurt.
“Why did I have to hear everything from your brother?”
Koki was now looking at him. He opened his mouth he wanted to say something but there were no words coming out. Jin sat down on a chair that was standing near him.
“Probably you already know that your brother called me about 2 months ago. He told me everything. - he paused - He told me the real reason why you left on that day, like that without saying goodbye just vanishing from our life’s. - Jin stood up and moved to Koki, who was still sitting on the ground, he kneeled down. Jin’s eyes were filled with tears again. They still didn’t recognize the two men standing at the door. - Koki, look at me, please, Koki talk to me. - But there was no answer, Koki averted his eyes, he could look at Jin. Jin stood up - Fuck Koki why didn’t you tell me that your mother got ill and that you had to leave to take care of her and go work for that guy to earn more money to be able to pay her medical fees and also the school fees of Juri?
(Koki’s mom lived in the US with his little brother Juri, they father died a long time ago so there was only his mother left.)
“Juri called me 2 months ago he felt guilty because you had to leave here, where you were happy. He knew about Kazuya and he also knew that none of knew the reason why you left. He told me everything he was crying on the phone. He was non-stop apologizing to me for not telling and that it’s they fault. - Jin looked at Koki - If you have told us everything at that time, we could have helped you, and we could have avoided all this pain and suffering. You were also suffering. Juri also told me that you were at the meeting place that day. You wanted to see Kazuya and that you wanted to explain everything but you didn’t go to him. You just stood there behind a tree for 2 hours and then you left crying.”
Jin and Koki heard the rustling of a plastic back. Kazuya dropped it.
Jin was shocked. “Kazuya”
Koki was now standing looking at Kazuya who was now shocked and his eyes were filled with tears. Kazuya could stand it anymore he turned around and ran out of the place. He needed time now that he heard so many new things, these change everything.
Ueda wanted to run after him, but Koki stopped him.
“It’s better to let him alone now.”
“But Koki…” He didn’t finish his sentence because he saw the pain in Koki’s eyes. He never saw someone this sad and hurt before.
Koki sat down on the next chair he found and buried his face in his hands. No one said a word each of them sat down. Silence covered the room till Ryo came back.
“Jin, I brought the material. Where should I put it?”
“Oh Ryo it doesn’t matter just put it somewhere. Oh and I forgot to introduce my best friend to you. “ He pointed at Koki, Koki looked at him he didn’t believe what he was hearing. Jin still considered him as his best friend even after this. He was so happy. Jin smiled at him and Ueda smiled at both of them, he missed that smile of Jin. Of course he smiled but he had a different smile on when he was with Koki or talked about him. He missed that smile of him.
“Here let me introduce you, he is Tanaka Koki my best friend since I can remember and a really famous photographer, I showed you some pictures. And Koki let me introduce you to Nishikido Ryo, he is my assistant now.”
“Hajimemashite, you can call me Koki” Koki smiled but then he made a painful face, his chin was hurting.
“Gomen does it still hurt?”
“Atarimaideshou, you hit me twice.”
“Twice??” asked Ueda and Ryo in sync.
Jin nodde slightly embarrassed. Koki turned and he gave his hand to Ryo.
“Ah, Hajimemashite, you can call me Ryo too.”
“Un.”
They started a nice conversation, Koki told them about his life in the last 2 years. About the thing which happened to him, but even tough they were laughing and making jokes, they could still feel that Koki was concerned about Kazuya.
Jin stood up patted Koki’s shoulder.
“You should go. You two should talk. I think he is there, you will found him there. Go. I hope things will go right. I want him smile again the way he smiled when he was with you.”
Koki nodded he said good bye and he stormed out of the atelier to the only place where he would find his one and only love. He ran to the place where they met, the small café which was hidden from most people eyes. The café in which he found the love of his life.
He ran as fast as he could; only stopped when he was standing in front of the café. The café didn’t change much the only thing was now that it was closed now because of some small renovations in the kitchen, but the door was slightly open showing that someone must be inside. Koki knew who that would be and he opened the door, the small bell rang saying that someone entered.
“Sorry but we are closed.”
“You are saying that to me a second time now.”
Kazuya slowly turned around; he knew that voice too well. He looked at Koki; his eyes were red most probably because he was crying till now.
“How?”
“I think I know you to well.” Koki smiled slightly. He moved closer to Kazuya. He brushed Kazuya cheeks.
“You are still a crybaby.”
“And you are a liar. Why didn’t you tell me…”
“I know and I am sorry I didn’t tell you because I didn’t wanted to bother you but because of that I hurt you. - He looked in Kazuya’s eyes - Can you forgive me? Can you give me another chance? I want to make you happy; I want to make up for these two years. Can I?” Koki caressed Kazuya’s cheeks with one hand the other was holding his waist in a gentle embrace. Kazuya looked in his eyes.
“You better. You have to make up for 2 years. That’s a lo…”
Kazuya was cut off by Koki’s lips. Koki kissed him gently than he looked at him with loved filled eyes, like the old days.
“I love you, I always did and I will always do. I am sorry for hurting you; I will never hurt you like that again. I promise.”
“You better or you will see the flower blooming from underneath.“ He gave Koki a glare but then his look softened and he gave Koki a small peck on his lips. “I love you” he added to his sentence and he hugged Koki tight, he didn’t want to let go of him, never again. Koki hugged him back. He had his love back and he will make sure that he won’t let go of him.
He won’t make a decision like that ever again. The choice he made not only hurt his love it hurt also his friends and also himself.
That day as he was hugging Kazuya again after 2 painful years he promised himself that he will take care of him and he will never leave him again. He will love him and make him happy.
-----
2 WEEKS LATER
“No Koki, that box goes into the bedroom, how many times so I have to tell you that.”
“Haiiiii”
Koki moved the box but he turned around and stole a small kiss from Kazuya.
“Oi, we are in public.”
Koki just smiled and continued with his work. Kazuya smiled also and blushed a little bit.
“Take a room will ya. Geez.”
“Akuma” said Koki and Kazuya in sync.
“Ha? Omeira. Who do you call here Akuma. Himeeee do I really have to help them even tough they are so mean to me? - He whined and looked at his lover with his puppy eyes.
“Yes you have to, they are our friends…. - he paused - and sometimes you are an akuma.”
Jin was shocked he didn’t believe what he heard. Ueda smiled and gave him a kiss on his cheeks. “Gomen” he whispered to him. “You better.” Jin was pouting for another 30 minutes but he was helping out to move the boxes from the truck and Ueda was helping Kazuya to unpack all the stuff. Junno and Yucchi joined a little bit later. All they friends were helping them to move. Koki bought a house and Kazuya and he moved there. The house had a lot more place for them, and Koki also moved his atelier there.
All of them were laughing and joking all day long enjoying the time. All of them were happy that everything is back to like it was before. Koki was taking pictures as everyone was working, but Jin got angry he said that Koki was only slacking off. They were chasing each other in the garden, Jin slipped and fell into the small pound that was standing there, Koki tripped the same moment and he pushed the button on his camera and captured the picture of the falling Jin. Everyone was laughing at them. They were behaving like little kids. Koki stood up and helped Jin out of the water.
“I guess you don’t have luck when it comes to pounds?” (Refer to chapter 7)
“Mouuu…”
Koki laughed harder when the drenched Jin got out of the water. Ueda handed him a tower.
The got Jin dry by lending him some of Koki’s clothes from one of the boxes and continued with the work. When they finished it was already getting dark. Junno and Yucchi prepared a barbeque for them and they had a nice dinner in the garden.
Everything was back to normal, everyone was happy again.
After the dinner they friends excused themselves and left. Kazuya was sitting at the veranda and looking at the stars. Koki placed to glasses of wine on the ground and hugged his love from behind. Kazuya leaned in the hug.
“What are you looking at?”
“The stars are beautiful tonight.”
Koki looked up.
“Yes but you are thousand times more beautiful then the stars.”
Kazuya looked at him with a slight blush but with a smile on his face.
“You are a sweet talker.”
“Only to you.”
They shared a gentle kiss under the lights of the night, under those thousand stars.