my trip to japan
I am officially a student of Japanese, as of last month. I don't know how this came to be, it's only that the day before the entrance exam I decided I was gonna do it, and I did.
I know that everything happens for a reason, so this decision is not completely spontaneous. Somehow I hope that in time I will find out why I did what I did because at the moment I feel it as a burden. I have a job which is rather demanding (at least on those days of the week when I teach) and fate wanted that the Japanese exercises classes are on the exact days when I work. That's why Mondays I have to leave the class early, and Wednesdays I can't go at all. This is all so very demotivating for me, especially concerning the fact that even before I applied for the entrance exam I knew I wasn't going to graduate Japanese because I plan to leave Zagreb in the next couple of years. I also have a graduation thesis and a couple of more exams to give for my "main" majors so this was a trip to Japan, in a way. If I had enough motivation, if I saw a sense in all this.. But I don't. Maybe this was my lesson to learn. You can't have it all.
I am completely tired of writing huge homeworks, practising hiragana for hours while preparing for my exams and the classes I teach. I have no time for photography, for music and I'm currently working on a humanitarian project + another project in one online community which is nearly done, but nevertheless, I'm exhausted.
I just needed a place to whine a little bit. I need a rest.
I know that everything happens for a reason, so this decision is not completely spontaneous. Somehow I hope that in time I will find out why I did what I did because at the moment I feel it as a burden. I have a job which is rather demanding (at least on those days of the week when I teach) and fate wanted that the Japanese exercises classes are on the exact days when I work. That's why Mondays I have to leave the class early, and Wednesdays I can't go at all. This is all so very demotivating for me, especially concerning the fact that even before I applied for the entrance exam I knew I wasn't going to graduate Japanese because I plan to leave Zagreb in the next couple of years. I also have a graduation thesis and a couple of more exams to give for my "main" majors so this was a trip to Japan, in a way. If I had enough motivation, if I saw a sense in all this.. But I don't. Maybe this was my lesson to learn. You can't have it all.
I am completely tired of writing huge homeworks, practising hiragana for hours while preparing for my exams and the classes I teach. I have no time for photography, for music and I'm currently working on a humanitarian project + another project in one online community which is nearly done, but nevertheless, I'm exhausted.
I just needed a place to whine a little bit. I need a rest.