Jun 17, 2007 12:37
how did i fall back in?
i dont think i've ever gone in a circle before.
oh noes.
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i feel the adrenaline rush and i like it. but some ppl live like that all the time. isnt it exhuasting? pia-ing like siao with a million things to do sometimes is fun. might even be essential to have once in a while. but i think i wld still like to revert to default laidback/slacker mode for time to think, slack and do nothing. or do random somethings at a leisurely pace.
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sometimes the perfectionist makes a rare appearance: i realize i can get very very very irritated with inefficiencies, esp thoes which, whether by chance or not, could have so easily been eliminated or avoided.
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i hate you/ but i love you
i cant stop thinking of you
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there was this emotion. it went something like rippityrip/shredshred/rippittyrip. in a small and quiet but highly significant way.
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omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg concert is in onetwothree days AHHHHHHHHH Oo
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yesterday drlee/benpooi started talking abt the future, the LONG TERM future of ac alumni band and i was SOO HAPPY EXCITED. coz it means i can dont do anything music professionally and still get to play the saxophone my whole life. or at least, the possiblity is there. of course, all these hopes/ideas/dreams and still die and not happen but just thinking of the possibility is exciting.
and then they chose animation medley as a song to play and im AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH:):):):):):):)
no, you dont know what this song means to me.
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