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i have no clue what to write but i feel obligated to post because there are a bunch of random laptops laying around. im sitting on the side porch which for you non CpCers is a room full of couches. at least half of the couches have two people snuggling on them. i feel lonely, cause all i have is this laptop. mindy just said i look mad at the world type of angry. its probably true. i wish i had someone to hold me. not necessarily out of like... dating (that would be nice though) but like... security. i wish someone would just grab me and hold me and let me cry on their shoulder and let me feel their warmth. im tempted to delete this paragraph, it sounds so pathetic.
there have been moments of happiness.
-dancing in the rain
- "what the bleep, i can't bleeping believe she bleeping bleeped!"
- cloudwatching
-staying up till 5 every fucking day
- and standing on the beach on the last day of third session singing at the top of our lungs:
to the tune of "break away" by kelly clarkson-
"never had a sex change,
never flew an airplane,
never had a food fight at circle pines,
i dont need a pet cause,
ive got a uterus,
its right theeeeeere,
why do you caaaaaaaare?
ill spread my legs and ill learn how to fly,
ill do alanas mom till i touch the sky,
gotta make a sandwich,
eat a fry,
take a dump,
and breaak awaaaaaaaaaaaay!"
in somewhat painful annoying news, i had to go to the bitch ass motherfucking hospital because i had an ingrown toe nail they had to cut out. they numbed it with an local anasthetic shot, which hurts like a bitch, but the first time they numbed it, they fucked it up and had to do it again, so more pain, and then it still didnt numb all the way, so the lady starting cutting and said "when it gets too much to handle, tell me" and she cut it out, but it was at no point absolutley unbearable. i hate that fucking hospital. goddamnit.
i miss (in no particular order and if i forget you im terribly sorry, im sleepy and out of it and i still love you dearly):
katy the conqueror, kennedy, max, J, liberte, jennie, ted, chris, J, charlie, robert, alison, alyse, marla, ashley, emelda, alana, natasha, kitchen katy, pya, alline, ellie, maggie, my mom and so many more people... im just totally blanking... its my fault... i know i can be a shitty friend sometimes. i miss and love you all. ill be home in about 3 days. lets hang out. seriously.
there have been moments of happiness.
-dancing in the rain
- "what the bleep, i can't bleeping believe she bleeping bleeped!"
- cloudwatching
-staying up till 5 every fucking day
- and standing on the beach on the last day of third session singing at the top of our lungs:
to the tune of "break away" by kelly clarkson-
"never had a sex change,
never flew an airplane,
never had a food fight at circle pines,
i dont need a pet cause,
ive got a uterus,
its right theeeeeere,
why do you caaaaaaaare?
ill spread my legs and ill learn how to fly,
ill do alanas mom till i touch the sky,
gotta make a sandwich,
eat a fry,
take a dump,
and breaak awaaaaaaaaaaaay!"
in somewhat painful annoying news, i had to go to the bitch ass motherfucking hospital because i had an ingrown toe nail they had to cut out. they numbed it with an local anasthetic shot, which hurts like a bitch, but the first time they numbed it, they fucked it up and had to do it again, so more pain, and then it still didnt numb all the way, so the lady starting cutting and said "when it gets too much to handle, tell me" and she cut it out, but it was at no point absolutley unbearable. i hate that fucking hospital. goddamnit.
i miss (in no particular order and if i forget you im terribly sorry, im sleepy and out of it and i still love you dearly):
katy the conqueror, kennedy, max, J, liberte, jennie, ted, chris, J, charlie, robert, alison, alyse, marla, ashley, emelda, alana, natasha, kitchen katy, pya, alline, ellie, maggie, my mom and so many more people... im just totally blanking... its my fault... i know i can be a shitty friend sometimes. i miss and love you all. ill be home in about 3 days. lets hang out. seriously.