we must stare into a crystal ball and only see the past...
things that are bugging me to no end:
- my dvd player is slowly dying, and makes every movie skip, no matter how unscratched it is
- when it does work there is a severe glare from the windows and i cant see anything
- my radio refuses to play burned cds for whatever reasons and thats about 75% of my cds
- thus, i have to listen to them on my cd player which is also slowly dying, and thus makes all the cds skip bah.
- theres no food in my house, except some vegan mac and cheese i made the other day, but eating that for 3 days straight get boring...
- i have to sleep on the either freezing or hot as hell back porch because thats where my parents decided to put my matress
- i keep reading books and watching movies where people die, and not bad guys dying, like, best friends and family members
- i had a really fucking good dream last night that i was being kissed, and it was really sweet and nice, and i even told myself in the dream "this is too good, its too real, it cant be a dream" and then it shifted to a different dream and then i woke up and was like "fuck"
- i still slightly have that feeling that someone slugged me in the stomach and knocked the wind out
- im kind of lonely and bored
things that are quite good:
+ its september, which means its almost fall, my favorite season
+ theres talk of moving to this apartment on the next block or so, which has more bedrooms, and a bigger backyard
+ im considering overcoming my fear of exorcisms and going to marlas house and renting the exorcist and watching it
+ i have a plethora of good movies to watch, that thing you do!, ginger snaps II, hedwig, and so on
+ im getting better at making mix cds that dont suck, and have access to my friends music downloading thing, so free music + blank cds= fun!
+ im getting better at playing gee-tar, which helps boredom
+ im sleeping better :)
+ i might go to the movies today, to see what, i dont know yet
+ i just got a check in the mail from my grandma (yay for sending birthday cards way too late!) so now i can pay for the piercing ive wanted forever
+ silkscreening relieves my stress!
+ i have amazing friends and i love them all
so yea... im not ecstatic, but i dont really want to hurl myself over a railing and snap my spine into splinters anymore, so i guess its a step up.
- my dvd player is slowly dying, and makes every movie skip, no matter how unscratched it is
- when it does work there is a severe glare from the windows and i cant see anything
- my radio refuses to play burned cds for whatever reasons and thats about 75% of my cds
- thus, i have to listen to them on my cd player which is also slowly dying, and thus makes all the cds skip bah.
- theres no food in my house, except some vegan mac and cheese i made the other day, but eating that for 3 days straight get boring...
- i have to sleep on the either freezing or hot as hell back porch because thats where my parents decided to put my matress
- i keep reading books and watching movies where people die, and not bad guys dying, like, best friends and family members
- i had a really fucking good dream last night that i was being kissed, and it was really sweet and nice, and i even told myself in the dream "this is too good, its too real, it cant be a dream" and then it shifted to a different dream and then i woke up and was like "fuck"
- i still slightly have that feeling that someone slugged me in the stomach and knocked the wind out
- im kind of lonely and bored
things that are quite good:
+ its september, which means its almost fall, my favorite season
+ theres talk of moving to this apartment on the next block or so, which has more bedrooms, and a bigger backyard
+ im considering overcoming my fear of exorcisms and going to marlas house and renting the exorcist and watching it
+ i have a plethora of good movies to watch, that thing you do!, ginger snaps II, hedwig, and so on
+ im getting better at making mix cds that dont suck, and have access to my friends music downloading thing, so free music + blank cds= fun!
+ im getting better at playing gee-tar, which helps boredom
+ im sleeping better :)
+ i might go to the movies today, to see what, i dont know yet
+ i just got a check in the mail from my grandma (yay for sending birthday cards way too late!) so now i can pay for the piercing ive wanted forever
+ silkscreening relieves my stress!
+ i have amazing friends and i love them all
so yea... im not ecstatic, but i dont really want to hurl myself over a railing and snap my spine into splinters anymore, so i guess its a step up.