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When will some people begin to understand that life, with it's numerous twists and turns towards good and fucked can be infinitely fun? Happiness is not an emotion, it's a point of view.
Sure, my dad physically abused me, but it's given me more of a backbone. Sure, Meagan won in the end, but now I realize that I cannot have everything that I want. Sure, Nick was never faithful to me, and kept me under his thumb for years after our relationship ended, but it's made me stronger, and now I will never be a victim to anyone or myself ever again. I will never be so gluttonous in my self indulgence ever again. I will always rise to a challenge, because competition is something that I truly enjoy. I pride myself in that I can still shake an opponent's hand at the end of the day and be best friends with them. (Unless you're Toni or Meagan, but what's life without a couple nemeses?)
With each mishap, no matter how minor, coping with life becomes a little easier. You can either give the world the finger, or you can just go with the flow. Be reckless, take risks, and at the end of the day, should you die, you'll be able to tell yourself that you lived life in a way so many people are too scared to. Once you learn to live just for yourself, dying becomes a lot less scary and more a fact of life, as does old age. Just one less thing holding you back.
I'm grateful for every scar I suffered and given myself, every bruise and broken bone, every broken heart, and every night I would cry myself to sleep. I'm UBER grateful for my family and friends; the moments spent in laughter and misery are worth more to me than anything on the planet. (Except maybe my own private oasis in the middle of the Gobi desert, which I would want to enjoy by myself anyways.) I'm grateful for my happiness, because it means I'm doing something right. :)
I am comfortable with where I am in life, and no one has the power to tamper with that but me.
Sure, my dad physically abused me, but it's given me more of a backbone. Sure, Meagan won in the end, but now I realize that I cannot have everything that I want. Sure, Nick was never faithful to me, and kept me under his thumb for years after our relationship ended, but it's made me stronger, and now I will never be a victim to anyone or myself ever again. I will never be so gluttonous in my self indulgence ever again. I will always rise to a challenge, because competition is something that I truly enjoy. I pride myself in that I can still shake an opponent's hand at the end of the day and be best friends with them. (Unless you're Toni or Meagan, but what's life without a couple nemeses?)
With each mishap, no matter how minor, coping with life becomes a little easier. You can either give the world the finger, or you can just go with the flow. Be reckless, take risks, and at the end of the day, should you die, you'll be able to tell yourself that you lived life in a way so many people are too scared to. Once you learn to live just for yourself, dying becomes a lot less scary and more a fact of life, as does old age. Just one less thing holding you back.
I'm grateful for every scar I suffered and given myself, every bruise and broken bone, every broken heart, and every night I would cry myself to sleep. I'm UBER grateful for my family and friends; the moments spent in laughter and misery are worth more to me than anything on the planet. (Except maybe my own private oasis in the middle of the Gobi desert, which I would want to enjoy by myself anyways.) I'm grateful for my happiness, because it means I'm doing something right. :)
I am comfortable with where I am in life, and no one has the power to tamper with that but me.