Meh...
I don't pretend not to know why my mojo's all thrown off lately. I didn't think it would affect me this much, to be honest.
People often wonder why I always leap before I look, and as pathetic as it may sound, I do it because I'm bored with my life, or because I possess enough meta-cognition to know that it's my only way out.
Even I have to admit that sometimes, I only do it because I'm waiting for the right person to clothesline me. What if that one person agrees with what I'm doing? *opens mouth, inserts foot*
But it's not because said person isn't responding correctly that I'm hesitant. I keep thinking about what could have been if things had gone differently. When you take such a big step on one side of the bridge, what would it have been like on the other? Much better, I can't deny that. But the fact that I'll never get to experience it is what I'm having trouble accepting. I know the system still works the same, and I know my place in the scheme of things.
I want a different place.
House, advice plzkthx?
People often wonder why I always leap before I look, and as pathetic as it may sound, I do it because I'm bored with my life, or because I possess enough meta-cognition to know that it's my only way out.
Even I have to admit that sometimes, I only do it because I'm waiting for the right person to clothesline me. What if that one person agrees with what I'm doing? *opens mouth, inserts foot*
But it's not because said person isn't responding correctly that I'm hesitant. I keep thinking about what could have been if things had gone differently. When you take such a big step on one side of the bridge, what would it have been like on the other? Much better, I can't deny that. But the fact that I'll never get to experience it is what I'm having trouble accepting. I know the system still works the same, and I know my place in the scheme of things.
I want a different place.
House, advice plzkthx?