sooooo relaxed...
holy crap
life = good.
i'm in such a good mood right now. idk why. idk how. i just am.
i am relaxed and feel like nothing can bring me down.
i just... feel... happy. i'm not stressed one bit.
i went driving. i went and walked around the mall. like i used to. all alone. and it felt good. i felt free from everything for once. my parents didnt call and ask me where i was. i went and just looked around and bought stuff. idk why, but for some reason, no one knowing or caring where i was or what i was doing, made me incredibly happy.
i feel so calm. i dont think that anything anyone could say or do could make me any less relaxed.
idk why i am going on about this, but it's a weird thing for me. usually i'm stressing out about everything. anyone who knows me knows that the smallest thing going wrong can set me off. and right now, a thousand things are going wrong, but, it's not phasing me. not a bit. i'm not mad a bit mad at the person that i would normally be jumpping right about now. one of the most important people to me, is 100% mad at me, and for some reason, it's not changing anything.
i realized while driving, that my life is great. that i dont need people to make me happy. i can find my own happiness on my own. also, that i have a great family, everything i could ever ask for, an awesome job, and awesome friends. that my unhappiness lately has just been me wanting more. i can never be pleased with what i have.
well, now, i am content with everything. i am mellow and calm. and, well, that's weird to me.
all of you, i frankly am not sure how most of you put up with me. but, well, thank you for doing so.
-Josh
life = good.
i'm in such a good mood right now. idk why. idk how. i just am.
i am relaxed and feel like nothing can bring me down.
i just... feel... happy. i'm not stressed one bit.
i went driving. i went and walked around the mall. like i used to. all alone. and it felt good. i felt free from everything for once. my parents didnt call and ask me where i was. i went and just looked around and bought stuff. idk why, but for some reason, no one knowing or caring where i was or what i was doing, made me incredibly happy.
i feel so calm. i dont think that anything anyone could say or do could make me any less relaxed.
idk why i am going on about this, but it's a weird thing for me. usually i'm stressing out about everything. anyone who knows me knows that the smallest thing going wrong can set me off. and right now, a thousand things are going wrong, but, it's not phasing me. not a bit. i'm not mad a bit mad at the person that i would normally be jumpping right about now. one of the most important people to me, is 100% mad at me, and for some reason, it's not changing anything.
i realized while driving, that my life is great. that i dont need people to make me happy. i can find my own happiness on my own. also, that i have a great family, everything i could ever ask for, an awesome job, and awesome friends. that my unhappiness lately has just been me wanting more. i can never be pleased with what i have.
well, now, i am content with everything. i am mellow and calm. and, well, that's weird to me.
all of you, i frankly am not sure how most of you put up with me. but, well, thank you for doing so.
-Josh