14 hours...
wow. this week has flown by.
i cant believe i am about to get my license. i dunno why i'm so excited about it. freedom just seems so freaking appealing. i'm also sorta depressed about it though. the fact that i am going to college in a little over two years seems unreal. i have to get into a good college, and right now, it doesnt seem like i'm going to. Dont get into a good college = dont get a good job = dont have a good life. too much pressure at the moment. there are times when i wish i could be 4 again. new in the world. everything was fun and happy. friends were easy to make and easier to keep. and all that mattered was what happened on the power rangers, not what NaOH + CuZn2 form. life was just more optimistic. there are so many things that if i was four again, i could have changed. So many more things i could have done to help me not be in the situation i am in. i mean, really, what's after this? a dead end job with crappy pay, 2 kids that you can barely afford, and a spouse who most likely will stay home with the kids (aka: not helping financially)? working 40hr work weeks, the 9-5, and coming home, eating, and going to sleep before doing it again? just making enough money to get by? ya know what the final result is? Death. yay. i cant wait for college to be over. life is just getting started, yet it already seems over.
yeah, but, i guess getting my license just seems to make all of the above more real. freedom = responsibility. the only responsibilities i want are going places with my friends and girlfriend. all i want is fun. i guess i'm just immature.
ok, done with my depressing rant. yeah, well, tell me what you think or w/e.
-Josh
i cant believe i am about to get my license. i dunno why i'm so excited about it. freedom just seems so freaking appealing. i'm also sorta depressed about it though. the fact that i am going to college in a little over two years seems unreal. i have to get into a good college, and right now, it doesnt seem like i'm going to. Dont get into a good college = dont get a good job = dont have a good life. too much pressure at the moment. there are times when i wish i could be 4 again. new in the world. everything was fun and happy. friends were easy to make and easier to keep. and all that mattered was what happened on the power rangers, not what NaOH + CuZn2 form. life was just more optimistic. there are so many things that if i was four again, i could have changed. So many more things i could have done to help me not be in the situation i am in. i mean, really, what's after this? a dead end job with crappy pay, 2 kids that you can barely afford, and a spouse who most likely will stay home with the kids (aka: not helping financially)? working 40hr work weeks, the 9-5, and coming home, eating, and going to sleep before doing it again? just making enough money to get by? ya know what the final result is? Death. yay. i cant wait for college to be over. life is just getting started, yet it already seems over.
yeah, but, i guess getting my license just seems to make all of the above more real. freedom = responsibility. the only responsibilities i want are going places with my friends and girlfriend. all i want is fun. i guess i'm just immature.
ok, done with my depressing rant. yeah, well, tell me what you think or w/e.
-Josh