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I've been working a lot of x-7 shifts lately, and when I get off at that time, there is a large, tree-less stretch of land where I get awe-inducing views of the sunset. As much as I talked about how horrible it was up here, as much as I used to hate it...regardless of all the bad things I may have said in the past...god damn is it fucking beautiful up here.
The sunsets are just fucking amazing.
And really, as much as I'd like to be filled with some sort of "inner peace" due to the sights before me, all I can really concentrate on is how I don't have anybody special to savor these priceless scenes with. A skyline that is seemingly designed to bring people together...just reminds me how alone I really feel deep inside.
Lately I've been taking it all in strides. I've felt with 3 pretty harsh rejections (at least, it was harsh to me) and I've kept my head above the water and put up a good facade. Those who don't read this probably wouldn't ever even know that I was kinda just bleh on the inside. It's been affecting me less and less, really. The rejections, that is. It used to just crush me. I guess I'm getting used to it, really. I've got a really nice support group up here, a friend who really is there for me when I'm bummed (mostly because he can tell me how horrible things are with his girlfriend XD).
Iono. I just felt like I had to get this down somewhere.