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The time as come to let you go.
Or at least, try to let you go. I've tried in many different ways, but this time, I'm going to try to go all out.
I love you with all my heart, but I can't keep giving and giving when I will never receive any in return. You gave me two of the best years of my life...and one of my worst. As much as it would please me to spend the rest of my life with you, it seems you don't feel that way towards me. And so, I have to go. You have to go.
My life has been devoid of pleasure lately. Devoid of happiness, and joy. As much as you have brought me over the years, all this right now is due to you. I hate this fact, and I can't think about it every day. I can't let it go on. I need to try to move on, to find happiness.
And I can't do that while being your friend. Not right now. If I can't have you for my own, I can't sanely have you at all. Perhaps one day it will change. Perhaps one day, I can call you friend...who knows, perhaps one day we shall come full circle and I can call you lover. But for now, I can't call you anything at all.
I start a new journey in my life. A journey of self discovery, of self worth. Too long have I judged myself by who I was with. Of who was with me, but I can't go on like this any longer. I love you, I need you...and that needs to change.
So, for now, and perhaps forever, goodbye. Deep down, you'll always have my heart, but I need most of it back, and I have to take it back the hard way.
Or at least, try to let you go. I've tried in many different ways, but this time, I'm going to try to go all out.
I love you with all my heart, but I can't keep giving and giving when I will never receive any in return. You gave me two of the best years of my life...and one of my worst. As much as it would please me to spend the rest of my life with you, it seems you don't feel that way towards me. And so, I have to go. You have to go.
My life has been devoid of pleasure lately. Devoid of happiness, and joy. As much as you have brought me over the years, all this right now is due to you. I hate this fact, and I can't think about it every day. I can't let it go on. I need to try to move on, to find happiness.
And I can't do that while being your friend. Not right now. If I can't have you for my own, I can't sanely have you at all. Perhaps one day it will change. Perhaps one day, I can call you friend...who knows, perhaps one day we shall come full circle and I can call you lover. But for now, I can't call you anything at all.
I start a new journey in my life. A journey of self discovery, of self worth. Too long have I judged myself by who I was with. Of who was with me, but I can't go on like this any longer. I love you, I need you...and that needs to change.
So, for now, and perhaps forever, goodbye. Deep down, you'll always have my heart, but I need most of it back, and I have to take it back the hard way.