The Lady Valerie Retires to the Country Estate of Her Bosom Friend
This weekend, a most trying Ordeal ended well. Saddled with a Composition detailing the Sum Total of my personal Experiences in the Far Orient, the Land of the Japaners, I was quite tardy in it's final execution, the Chronicle lingering far into what should have been a peaceful retirement as I repaired to the Lady of the Spanish Lowlands' country Estate...
OMG "The Wound-Up Cat Chronicle" WOULD NOT DIE.
I had no fucking idea what to write so it's basically crazy psycho-vomit and it makes me look like a crazy shrieking lunatic, which I kind of am because I need to *live* with violent fury until I live so hard I achieve the orgasm of life that explodes into death. Because I want to die but death is so powerful I need to make mine mean something because I'm actually nothing and the yawning chasm of my own oblivion terrifies me and makes me do CRAZY SHIT.
Trying to write this personal essay, I looked at the *last* personal essay I wrote for Dr Herbert
...which was about how I WASN'T ACTUALLY A PERSON. -___-;;
I don't why I don't feel like a person >_<
I just feel like a ghost ...and not just because I'm white xD
I hate how my life keeps coming back to that now and then.
Do I need to assert myself more?
...but I already kind of assert myself sort of? >_>;;;
Before I popped up to Claudine's, I had lunch with Anna-Sophie <3
"Elf control o_O???"
Karaoke at some point, her being here is just TOO BENRI!!!
Anna Sophie is also awesome because she navigated me to Claudine's b/c I'm inept <3
But Claudine and I actually had a lot of fun!
"I've been holding off the next evolution..."
"...have you been holding down the B button? XD"
Final Fantasy VII
"You level up!"
"Do I get any Gil? T_T"
we played through getting to avalanche's hideout and the cut-scene-y things, hurrays, i sort of know more things
And Claudine plot summarized the game so now maybe I'll understand John and Joe more ^^
"...omg I am Tifa.... T_____T" at least John doesn't think Tifa is pathetic ...? T_T
Final Fantasy XII!!! OMG FRAN AND HER MAN T_____T <3<3<3
• <3 Snarky Badass British People
• Balthiar is just SMEX. He's like the Final Fantasy version of Rhett Butler XD
• Judi Dench + Bunny Woman + LOTR Elf = FRAN.
• I woke up from my nap to see Fran in sexy black armor riding a crazy airbike of WIN. <3
• Lol completely stupid useless overidealistic protagonists of FAIIILLL.
Cooking Adventures!
• Claudine showed me how to fry potatoes <3
• And we made cookies! ...that were already made for us...>_>;;
• I loaded a dishwasher! ...for the first time in my life because peons like me don have them xD
Driving Adventures!
• "[Claudine] drives her car like [she's] piloting a mecha in a warzone" alex is so smart xD
• Looking for a Comic Book Store... while being lied to by signs T_T
• Adding a new member to the party -- Philly.
• "Oh, that totally wasn't illegal... >_>;;;"
And I totally burned her Kenshin Best Themes CD because I missed the Juppon Gatana song sooo much I love that song because it's so randomly full of mentally unstable people, but with awesome guitar 90's randomness.
I love Shishio x Yume so much <3 I really think they're one of the healthier relationships in anime, even if they're both a little crazy ^^v Kyyuu~
Thank you Claudine ^^;;
...the minute I got back, things had to be set in order before I bounced up to Columbia
Superbowl drama, etc. Luke is such a cutie <3
Dangerous trek up to Columbia subway had lots of rowdy people and fights broke out
Sleepy time with John and Christina <3
• Oh the verbal abuse >_>;;;;
• John really only keeps Christina and me around for body heat.
• Discourse on the judgement of Tiresias "He's only right when guys do it *the right way*..."
• "Two Girls, One Cup" .... T______T ...even wronger was kermit's reaction T__T
• I know so little about people >_<
• Spent most of the time studying for today's Kanji quiz ...which I bombed anyway >_>;;
• Christina really like's China ^^;;; "omg i have all the letters of China in my name! ^___^"
...and John really likes to make fun of her ^^;;
• John is a nice person that thinks the Ugly Betty girl is pretty christina and i, however... do not.
My Italian Professor is an awesome little Italian woman that says "okay" like Robert DeNiro xD
I've decided I like small evil Italian women. ~nodnod~ I was talking to Claudine about like, what construes femininity, and like, I dunno, I love Termini and this woman, and I think they're beautiful and vibrant, but like, they don't strike me as feminine? But they're so cool, wauugh. I dunno, should I not make them role models as much as I do? I need more feminine role-models b/c wtf I don't come across as female, gahhh i'm so simultaneously masculine and feminine they cancel each other out >_<;;;;
"You don't think I'm being too mean, do you?"
"No ^^;;"
"Good, because I don't feel like stopping xD"
OMG "The Wound-Up Cat Chronicle" WOULD NOT DIE.
I had no fucking idea what to write so it's basically crazy psycho-vomit and it makes me look like a crazy shrieking lunatic, which I kind of am because I need to *live* with violent fury until I live so hard I achieve the orgasm of life that explodes into death. Because I want to die but death is so powerful I need to make mine mean something because I'm actually nothing and the yawning chasm of my own oblivion terrifies me and makes me do CRAZY SHIT.
Trying to write this personal essay, I looked at the *last* personal essay I wrote for Dr Herbert
...which was about how I WASN'T ACTUALLY A PERSON. -___-;;
I don't why I don't feel like a person >_<
I just feel like a ghost ...and not just because I'm white xD
I hate how my life keeps coming back to that now and then.
Do I need to assert myself more?
...but I already kind of assert myself sort of? >_>;;;
Before I popped up to Claudine's, I had lunch with Anna-Sophie <3
"Elf control o_O???"
Karaoke at some point, her being here is just TOO BENRI!!!
Anna Sophie is also awesome because she navigated me to Claudine's b/c I'm inept <3
But Claudine and I actually had a lot of fun!
"I've been holding off the next evolution..."
"...have you been holding down the B button? XD"
Final Fantasy VII
"You level up!"
"Do I get any Gil? T_T"
we played through getting to avalanche's hideout and the cut-scene-y things, hurrays, i sort of know more things
And Claudine plot summarized the game so now maybe I'll understand John and Joe more ^^
"...omg I am Tifa.... T_____T" at least John doesn't think Tifa is pathetic ...? T_T
Final Fantasy XII!!! OMG FRAN AND HER MAN T_____T <3<3<3
• <3 Snarky Badass British People
• Balthiar is just SMEX. He's like the Final Fantasy version of Rhett Butler XD
• Judi Dench + Bunny Woman + LOTR Elf = FRAN.
• I woke up from my nap to see Fran in sexy black armor riding a crazy airbike of WIN. <3
• Lol completely stupid useless overidealistic protagonists of FAIIILLL.
Cooking Adventures!
• Claudine showed me how to fry potatoes <3
• And we made cookies! ...that were already made for us...>_>;;
• I loaded a dishwasher! ...for the first time in my life because peons like me don have them xD
Driving Adventures!
• "[Claudine] drives her car like [she's] piloting a mecha in a warzone" alex is so smart xD
• Looking for a Comic Book Store... while being lied to by signs T_T
• Adding a new member to the party -- Philly.
• "Oh, that totally wasn't illegal... >_>;;;"
And I totally burned her Kenshin Best Themes CD because I missed the Juppon Gatana song sooo much I love that song because it's so randomly full of mentally unstable people, but with awesome guitar 90's randomness.
I love Shishio x Yume so much <3 I really think they're one of the healthier relationships in anime, even if they're both a little crazy ^^v Kyyuu~
Thank you Claudine ^^;;
...the minute I got back, things had to be set in order before I bounced up to Columbia
Superbowl drama, etc. Luke is such a cutie <3
Dangerous trek up to Columbia subway had lots of rowdy people and fights broke out
Sleepy time with John and Christina <3
• Oh the verbal abuse >_>;;;;
• John really only keeps Christina and me around for body heat.
• Discourse on the judgement of Tiresias "He's only right when guys do it *the right way*..."
• "Two Girls, One Cup" .... T______T ...even wronger was kermit's reaction T__T
• I know so little about people >_<
• Spent most of the time studying for today's Kanji quiz ...which I bombed anyway >_>;;
• Christina really like's China ^^;;; "omg i have all the letters of China in my name! ^___^"
...and John really likes to make fun of her ^^;;
• John is a nice person that thinks the Ugly Betty girl is pretty christina and i, however... do not.
My Italian Professor is an awesome little Italian woman that says "okay" like Robert DeNiro xD
I've decided I like small evil Italian women. ~nodnod~ I was talking to Claudine about like, what construes femininity, and like, I dunno, I love Termini and this woman, and I think they're beautiful and vibrant, but like, they don't strike me as feminine? But they're so cool, wauugh. I dunno, should I not make them role models as much as I do? I need more feminine role-models b/c wtf I don't come across as female, gahhh i'm so simultaneously masculine and feminine they cancel each other out >_<;;;;
"You don't think I'm being too mean, do you?"
"No ^^;;"
"Good, because I don't feel like stopping xD"