Burning Inside. Burning Out

Feb 06, 2007 20:58

Cant seem to stay awake through classes.
Anna Sophie has been poking me awake so I dont make a total ass of myself.

Dragging myself on through the days. Didn't really sleep last night. Probably not going to sleep tonight either.
I've never had to tea myself awake this early in the semester. It does not bode well.

Picasso is in the end game. The super end game. I want it done TONIGHT.
I also have a paper due tomorrow. And another monster reading. Fuck.

It's true that dying women are always the most beautiful. It sucks because I agree with Poe well, dying in a fake-cliche-looking-really-pretty way. Not actually...because that is gross and corporal and not pretty...It's always great to know you've internalized everyone's expectations, or what you've *perceived* as their expectations and now it just eats away at your insides as continue throwing yourself against that wall.
I feel like I'm wasting away mentally, and I'm sort of just letting it go, hoping that it appeals to someone's "oooh, I want to be manly now!" nature. Hopefully I'll actually also waste away physically this time too, because guys are visual like that.

The Next 24 Hours:
• Eat with Ben & Fanny
• Finish Picasso Paper
• Insert Pictures and Wrap Text
• Write 2 page paper on religion and art
• Do English Readings
• 9-10am: Be in AmeriProse
• Go to high school to drop off Picasso Paper
I dont know if they'll actually help me, but it seriously helps in terms of motivation
• Go back to my dorm and pick up my delivery.
• Go back uptown for free food
• Take notes feverishly
• 4-7pm: Be in Medieval Art
• Attend OpE at dorm
• PASS OUT hurrraayy... T_T

I'm still constantly furious.

You shouldn't listen
To One-Winged Angel too much.
It does things to you.

Estuans interius
ira vehementi

Burning inside
with violent anger

man trouble, junior year, hormonal

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