well....

[zehhet]

ok so ithink im figureing my own shit

if anyone was wondering had been wondering there is shit

so ever since i broke up with chan ive been trying to get my life settled which has taken a while since everytime i turn around something else has gone wrong.

anyway, i said to myself that the next girlfriend i wanted was some one who was amazing not some one that i kinda like or some one i that i kinda want to go out with

and latly ive thought that was lia, but then it wasn't at the same time

i what im thinking right now is that was i was really likeing was how great of relationships she has with people and how i was really really really wanted something like that

and seeing as ive done everything i wanted that i really wanted a year a half ago, a group of really good friends who i love and love me

so now i am single and looking