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A lot of my friends are unhappy--and that makes me unhappy. :(
I don't know how I seem to be able to get through tough times and not get depressed...I just do. And maybe that's a BAD thing, who knows? It's not like I'm super-happy all the time. For about a month in November I was pretty darn melancholy--happy sometimes, contemplative and sad others.
It seems that there's 3 main ways you can deal with stuff:
1. Smile and nod, pretending to be happy and ignoring it until it goes away.
2. Obsessing over it and becoming depressed and still never facing it.
3. Face it head on and really think about what is making you sad.
And I think I usually do #3 and that's why I don't get sad. When Beth wasn't my friend and she pushed me away and thought and I thought; "Why should I be sad about this? I'm sad becuase I've lost something that I thought would be great, I'm sad becuase my friend could be dying, but if she doesn't want me, why should I long for her? Why? Because I am her friend even if she's not mine, but I can't place all my happiness on her, I have to let go a little so she can see her wrong and I can be happy."
People think that being someone's friend is just not making them unhappy. Well, sometimes you have to get a little sad and hurt before you can see the good and happy thing to do. Being someone's friend is telling them when they're making a mistake--but only after you've really thought about whether it's a mistake or not, and if you also do it, making the effort to change yourself, also. People just don't GET that, and I don't know why? Maybe it's my upbringing inside of TNS that makes me able to be happy, who knows? I think church has been making me happy, too. It's so relaxing and nice to pray at church every week, and thank God for everything I have and ask for guidance. I don't believe in Colleen's crazy idea of "destiny" and I sure as hell hope it's incorrect. I try to be a good person, more now than ever. I don't really get people's reaction to religion, and I definitely think that everyone should be Catholic and believe in God--why not? Don't believe in fate like Colleen and sit around waiting for opportunity to knock, that's not the way to live.
I'm happy and I love life and everyone around me. :)
I LOVE YOU GUYS, EVERY ONE OF YOU!
I don't know how I seem to be able to get through tough times and not get depressed...I just do. And maybe that's a BAD thing, who knows? It's not like I'm super-happy all the time. For about a month in November I was pretty darn melancholy--happy sometimes, contemplative and sad others.
It seems that there's 3 main ways you can deal with stuff:
1. Smile and nod, pretending to be happy and ignoring it until it goes away.
2. Obsessing over it and becoming depressed and still never facing it.
3. Face it head on and really think about what is making you sad.
And I think I usually do #3 and that's why I don't get sad. When Beth wasn't my friend and she pushed me away and thought and I thought; "Why should I be sad about this? I'm sad becuase I've lost something that I thought would be great, I'm sad becuase my friend could be dying, but if she doesn't want me, why should I long for her? Why? Because I am her friend even if she's not mine, but I can't place all my happiness on her, I have to let go a little so she can see her wrong and I can be happy."
People think that being someone's friend is just not making them unhappy. Well, sometimes you have to get a little sad and hurt before you can see the good and happy thing to do. Being someone's friend is telling them when they're making a mistake--but only after you've really thought about whether it's a mistake or not, and if you also do it, making the effort to change yourself, also. People just don't GET that, and I don't know why? Maybe it's my upbringing inside of TNS that makes me able to be happy, who knows? I think church has been making me happy, too. It's so relaxing and nice to pray at church every week, and thank God for everything I have and ask for guidance. I don't believe in Colleen's crazy idea of "destiny" and I sure as hell hope it's incorrect. I try to be a good person, more now than ever. I don't really get people's reaction to religion, and I definitely think that everyone should be Catholic and believe in God--why not? Don't believe in fate like Colleen and sit around waiting for opportunity to knock, that's not the way to live.
I'm happy and I love life and everyone around me. :)
I LOVE YOU GUYS, EVERY ONE OF YOU!