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[zeechawan]

I am sexually frustrated!!!!
UGGHHH!!!!

And I'm not quite sure how to get over it. I even snapped at Spencer this morning because of it.

...sex sucks.
You want it but then you don't want it but you want it but it keeps mocking you. DAMN YOU, SEX!

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[seroci]

Guys' interpretations of their libidos is very subjective! I remember Josh apologizing for his libido (this was when we were just kissing), giving the impression that his ran high. I had to get over that in order to move beyond our sex issues. (don't know if that made sense...)

I guess whether or not you have sex just 'cause your hormones demand it or because you want to make love because you feel strongly for him, the kicker in the decision is whether or not you'll regret the decision later. Sometimes those hormones just HAVE to be taken care of, you need a good fuck! Other times you just need the intimacy and love that goes with it. (I remember Nate as adamant about not using the word 'fuck' because it sounded harsh and mean, but Josh and I use 'fuck' and 'make love' interchangeably...at some point, a 'good fuck' is still 'making love,' and this might be TMI but I don't really care, it's hot when he simply says, "Fuck me." ^.^)

It's tough, 'cause it's a decision only you can make, no one can tell you how. I remember vaguely making the decision to go on birth control (mostly talking to my mom about it, I don't remember making the actual decision), and I do remember deciding 'what the hell, let's do it' in the moment, but it's really fuzzy. And I never regretted it, even though it was with Nate. With Josh it was much more fluid, a much easier decision, because it just felt natural. (it also helped that we'd both had sex before! it's much more intimidating when you're a virgin)

[zeechawan]

To tell the truth I don't think I could regret anything I do with him. Because I trust him fully about those types of things, I know that if I don't want to do something he'll stop, and so on and so forth.
And he hasn't pressured me at all either.

I think I'm just still trying to find the balance between friendship and sexual attraction. We're very comfortable with each other friendship-wise, but I don't know how to balance that with the attraction (since this is my first time trying).

So when he tries to flirt and things of that nature, I always kind of nervously giggle and feel awkward! UGH! I only feel awkward because I don't know how to respond to it; I love when he flirts but my nervous giggling and awkward feelings probably will make him stop doing it. I DON'T WANT THAT!

Sorry, I kind of slipped another issue in again, didn't I? Oh me, oh my.

But thanks for the advice though, I do think fuck and making love can be used interchangeably too. But Fuck is just so much HOTTER! So I agree with you on that one. lol

God, I think I'm too kinky for myself to handle. Let alone anyone else. Ugh!