another victim.
i'll admit. i'm hurt.
it hurts when you try to love someone the best you can and they don't do the same for you.
it hurts when you put someone as number one and you know at best you'll always be number two.
it hurts when you give someone the relationship they want and they don't want it anymore.
it hurts when you try to be there for someone but they want to be there for someone else.
i'm not going to get bitter or angry. i should have known better. i knew it from the beginning. i knew i shouldn't have broken my rules for him. i wished that this time would've been different. it was different... but not in a good way. if anything, i'm mad at myself.
i just hurt. that's all.
everything happens for a reason. this is in God's hands and He's teaching me through this.
i feel comfort in His love and joy because i know His is real and will never change it's mind on a whim.
i'll be distancing myself from certain things and people. i need time to heal and find strength in God. i need to forgive and forget. i need to surround myself with people who love ME. i need to spend more time with Him because at the end of the day, He's the only one who's always there for me. forever and always. His love is unconditional and that's something i need right now.
i'll be around. i use this journal for more private entries than anything else so i'm just going to keep it that way. God bless you all. I wish you the very best in life.
just know, someone can say they want to give you everything in the world but no one will ever do so like God. He actually keeps His promises.
it hurts when you try to love someone the best you can and they don't do the same for you.
it hurts when you put someone as number one and you know at best you'll always be number two.
it hurts when you give someone the relationship they want and they don't want it anymore.
it hurts when you try to be there for someone but they want to be there for someone else.
i'm not going to get bitter or angry. i should have known better. i knew it from the beginning. i knew i shouldn't have broken my rules for him. i wished that this time would've been different. it was different... but not in a good way. if anything, i'm mad at myself.
i just hurt. that's all.
everything happens for a reason. this is in God's hands and He's teaching me through this.
i feel comfort in His love and joy because i know His is real and will never change it's mind on a whim.
i'll be distancing myself from certain things and people. i need time to heal and find strength in God. i need to forgive and forget. i need to surround myself with people who love ME. i need to spend more time with Him because at the end of the day, He's the only one who's always there for me. forever and always. His love is unconditional and that's something i need right now.
i'll be around. i use this journal for more private entries than anything else so i'm just going to keep it that way. God bless you all. I wish you the very best in life.
just know, someone can say they want to give you everything in the world but no one will ever do so like God. He actually keeps His promises.