ILLUSORY

[zee_luv_yunnie]

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These recent msgs tug me back to the past, recall all memories between us.

Yeah, those days are still right here in my mind

Can't deny that I was very lucky to have a chance to enjoy such a happy moment.

Concern and to be concern.

That was great.

But I hecka dun wanna rake over old ashes

haiz... maybe "old ashes" is too serious, too negative ...*blah blah*

It's quite suitable with my situation, though! *sigh*

For me, true luv, serious luv is impossible now.

Its' not becuz of anybody's fault but mine. * hate to hafta admit but...*

It's too cruel If I accept what he is dedicating whole-heartedly to me

Cuz I am still lost in my own realm . To tell the truth, I make myself sink deeper and deeper in it , and even dun wanna get out.

So I'm afraid to hurt him

Gosh......

I can't do that

I'm not that bad

I once hurt this person

and I hella dun wanna make such a huge mistake again.

Plz forgive me

*guilty dwelling my soul*

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My tenshi, plz protect me with ur shiroi tsubasa

My tenshi, plz lull me with ur beautiful voice

...and lead me to our zion

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all is illusory

I'll never

I'll never find someone like you

Believe me It's true

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