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Symptoms that I recognise as precursors to severe depression, if not evidence of depression itself, have been especially strong over the past month or so: a strong desire to somehow transport myself away from my very identity, a need to withdraw from others combined with a keening sense of my own social isolation (this paradoxical combination of feelings is probably one of my depression's most defining attributes). I don't feel as bad as I expect to do when I'm in full-scale depression, though. Maybe I'm just getting better at fighting the symptoms when they manifest. I hope so. I'd still like them to go away. Fighting them all the time is hard.
I haven't been motivated to post here much. Right now I'm just trying to put myself out in public more, and writing here seems like a relatively low-key way of doing that. I hope in time I can find something more interesting to write about. I hope in time that my life gets more interesting, so that I feel like writing about it again.
I haven't been motivated to post here much. Right now I'm just trying to put myself out in public more, and writing here seems like a relatively low-key way of doing that. I hope in time I can find something more interesting to write about. I hope in time that my life gets more interesting, so that I feel like writing about it again.