I miss you, but I can't be with you...
I guess I'll have to get over her... She can't be trusting... Wow. Start over... Can't forget about her.
As much as I didn't want to, I can't be around someone I've told my life to and still can't be trusting. I've proven her wrong everytime she's suspected me... Never have I lied to her (Unless it was for ). But just because of the fact that i'm in the navy, I can't be trusted... I can easily change... And here she talks about marriage... I say SLAP!
In other news:
I hate her so much that I still love her... She floods me with emails but I haven't read any of 'em... I don't think I want to. Its all in from of me but I just want to delete them. I don't think I want to go back. I'll only end up hurting myself along with her... I just can't keep going back just because I want to. If only I can make it so I can leave the navy... but it aint that easy. This is what I chose... This is who I am, where I am and what I can do to help me in the future... Why can't she understand that this is ONLY A JOB!!!
I sit in a corner thinking, playing my guitar singing songs we wrote and play... This nostalgic feeling... I just want to play this melody of oblivion... The trepidition is killing me!
You sat me down beside myself
To show me all the reasons I was wrong for you
Was this for real? It's hard to tell
'Cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into
I'm gonna overcome this, paper hearts can't win this time
And all along I should have known this wasn't your dream, it was mine
I know you wanted me to give up this life to be
Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in
I was never good at goodbye...
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
When we were starting out, you believed in me without a doubt
You were the finest thing to happen to a boy like me
It's so much harder now, I wanna try and tell you how
There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see
And I was never good at goodbye...
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes
Today I couldn't stay awake
Feels like I'm drowning in this firewater lake
I won't be sleeping much tonight
It's not the same without you lying by my side
(Right beside me)
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes
I know you wanted me to give up my life to be
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
Everything I am when you're the only thing that I can see
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
I'm sorry but you're not the, not the only one for me
(So this brain in my head can forget your face)
You left me here beside myself
Left me with all the reasons why I was wrong for you
As much as I didn't want to, I can't be around someone I've told my life to and still can't be trusting. I've proven her wrong everytime she's suspected me... Never have I lied to her (Unless it was for ). But just because of the fact that i'm in the navy, I can't be trusted... I can easily change... And here she talks about marriage... I say SLAP!
In other news:
I hate her so much that I still love her... She floods me with emails but I haven't read any of 'em... I don't think I want to. Its all in from of me but I just want to delete them. I don't think I want to go back. I'll only end up hurting myself along with her... I just can't keep going back just because I want to. If only I can make it so I can leave the navy... but it aint that easy. This is what I chose... This is who I am, where I am and what I can do to help me in the future... Why can't she understand that this is ONLY A JOB!!!
I sit in a corner thinking, playing my guitar singing songs we wrote and play... This nostalgic feeling... I just want to play this melody of oblivion... The trepidition is killing me!
You sat me down beside myself
To show me all the reasons I was wrong for you
Was this for real? It's hard to tell
'Cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into
I'm gonna overcome this, paper hearts can't win this time
And all along I should have known this wasn't your dream, it was mine
I know you wanted me to give up this life to be
Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in
I was never good at goodbye...
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
When we were starting out, you believed in me without a doubt
You were the finest thing to happen to a boy like me
It's so much harder now, I wanna try and tell you how
There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see
And I was never good at goodbye...
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes
Today I couldn't stay awake
Feels like I'm drowning in this firewater lake
I won't be sleeping much tonight
It's not the same without you lying by my side
(Right beside me)
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes
I know you wanted me to give up my life to be
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
Everything I am when you're the only thing that I can see
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
I'm sorry but you're not the, not the only one for me
(So this brain in my head can forget your face)
You left me here beside myself
Left me with all the reasons why I was wrong for you