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Just got back from the ship... I went down to Kamakura to see Emi and somehow say goodbye before she hops on the train. Her dad just got back from work when I came over. Somehow, he was expecting to see me. I guess its just normal even though I was told not to see her again. We talked for a bit since she was still eating. He started telling me about the reason why she had to leave. It turns out that she's had plans on taking up some music class from this university in Nagano about 12 miles away from her grandma's place (about a 10 to 15-minute train ride) before she met me. I feel bad evenmore 'cuz she actually stayed longer for me... And here I thought she's actually leaving 'Cuz of my DUMB @$$. How concieted of me. It made me hate myself evenmore...
I went with them to drop her off the station. We talked while she played with my cellphone... It's gotta be the longest 45 minutes of my life... I was hoping it would've been longer but I guess that's just another one of my wishful thinkings... We got off the car and those fully bloomed Sakura trees made it even more depressing knowing I can't spend some time with her underneath one. We said our goodbyes... I got one last kiss before she left, her mother started crying and even pulled a joke while at it, "Its like a great love story that ended in a tragic goodbye..." she says... I can't help but shed some tears... She took her luggage and said, "Pussy!" I was like... WHAAAA???
She walked towards the entrance. I still remember those steps she took and the last words she spoke with tears. "I'll come back so don't you dare go out with someone else!" I smiled... I choked. She then said, "Please Wait for me... Aishiteru..." I couldn't say anything. All I did was look at her. I stood there for a good 3 minutes when the train closed. I was finnaly able to move and yelled out "I love you"! I hoped she heard me... Her dad drove me back to the base after that. I sat in the car for whole of hour awkward silence. We reached Yokosuka and her dad finally broke that silence. He asked me what I felt about his daughter. I told him the truth. I've never felt so positive in my life. I told him she was everything I wanted in a girl. She was too good to be true and that I was willing to wait. He then reminded me about the fact that he too was in the navy and that he knows what goes on when we hit foreign ports. I told him the truth that temptations were all over the place and since I'm the only "All male ship" in the entire navy, there might be a problem with that temptation while in foriegn ports... Though I know for sure I can control myself.
She calls me almost every hour after 17:00 and emails me during working hours. I can't ask for anything more. I guess this is a solution. a good closure for a goodbye... I guess all that's left for me now is wait. And its not a problem as long as I have contact with her. That's all I care.
!Love and Peace!
I went with them to drop her off the station. We talked while she played with my cellphone... It's gotta be the longest 45 minutes of my life... I was hoping it would've been longer but I guess that's just another one of my wishful thinkings... We got off the car and those fully bloomed Sakura trees made it even more depressing knowing I can't spend some time with her underneath one. We said our goodbyes... I got one last kiss before she left, her mother started crying and even pulled a joke while at it, "Its like a great love story that ended in a tragic goodbye..." she says... I can't help but shed some tears... She took her luggage and said, "Pussy!" I was like... WHAAAA???
She walked towards the entrance. I still remember those steps she took and the last words she spoke with tears. "I'll come back so don't you dare go out with someone else!" I smiled... I choked. She then said, "Please Wait for me... Aishiteru..." I couldn't say anything. All I did was look at her. I stood there for a good 3 minutes when the train closed. I was finnaly able to move and yelled out "I love you"! I hoped she heard me... Her dad drove me back to the base after that. I sat in the car for whole of hour awkward silence. We reached Yokosuka and her dad finally broke that silence. He asked me what I felt about his daughter. I told him the truth. I've never felt so positive in my life. I told him she was everything I wanted in a girl. She was too good to be true and that I was willing to wait. He then reminded me about the fact that he too was in the navy and that he knows what goes on when we hit foreign ports. I told him the truth that temptations were all over the place and since I'm the only "All male ship" in the entire navy, there might be a problem with that temptation while in foriegn ports... Though I know for sure I can control myself.
She calls me almost every hour after 17:00 and emails me during working hours. I can't ask for anything more. I guess this is a solution. a good closure for a goodbye... I guess all that's left for me now is wait. And its not a problem as long as I have contact with her. That's all I care.
!Love and Peace!