25 Years old and all that crap in between
well lets see, its been about a year that I updated this and well i'm not one for feeling bad about the stuff, i decided that it was time that I updated it. I am at this moment complacent with my life and the fact that things are all looking up for the moment. {finally catching a break!} I feel as if all my past struggles haven't been in vain, and that all the people that I have forgotten haven't been. They take a part of me, I used to believe that I was a fractured soul, but now I see that the diffence between fractured and just cracked are a huge difference. and the truly one and only safeguard that I needed was maturity, Having a child can change you. Jose is now three years old and I feel like he is the center of all my world, in fact i've come to terms with a truth now. Its no longer about me but about him. I had my shot at life and even though we continue to live, it only matters for him. I guess the thing was that I lacked direction in my chaotic lifestyle. I used to love to watch people writhe in agony at any pain that I could cause. and thats just what it was. Childish behavior.
let's see i guess that my cousins husband will be deported, he hit her while she was pregnant, im not defending him, but we have all been in a situation like this at one point in time. maybe not that severe but still pretty bad off. hes going to be deported. thats a sadness all its own, not to mention his daughter. she is just a little baby, but i believe he has learned his lesson. I hope he can make amends with the lord and that he can raise his daughter, just like i have raised my son.
my cousin Josue had a baby boy with his wife( yes he got married)and are expecting another one later this year. im so happy for him but I dont see him anymore. its saddening we're all drifting, gabby and the twins, josue and his two children, Luis and his son, roxanne and her daughter. The only one that doesn't have one yet is my sister. well she was gonna have one and she had a miscarriage, what a bizzare thing in life. sometimes it does things to better us, sometimes it doesn't.
let's see i guess that my cousins husband will be deported, he hit her while she was pregnant, im not defending him, but we have all been in a situation like this at one point in time. maybe not that severe but still pretty bad off. hes going to be deported. thats a sadness all its own, not to mention his daughter. she is just a little baby, but i believe he has learned his lesson. I hope he can make amends with the lord and that he can raise his daughter, just like i have raised my son.
my cousin Josue had a baby boy with his wife( yes he got married)and are expecting another one later this year. im so happy for him but I dont see him anymore. its saddening we're all drifting, gabby and the twins, josue and his two children, Luis and his son, roxanne and her daughter. The only one that doesn't have one yet is my sister. well she was gonna have one and she had a miscarriage, what a bizzare thing in life. sometimes it does things to better us, sometimes it doesn't.