(no subject)
life is crazy.
it's always changing. one minute things are one way and the next they are so different. once i think i need to write an entry there isn't time and by the time there is time the facts have changed the people have changed the ideas have changed.
i sometimes don't want to write about what is going on.
i feel bi-polar in my own head. my view and outlook on life has changed so much i feel like a different person.
this last year at msu has been insane. a real roller coaster. i've gone through so many stages and phases. so much change and realizations.
this last semester will be spent with my great friends.
it's sad that there are people who always say they will come visit me and now we are down to the last semester and i don't think they ever will visit.
oh well. i'm not going to dwell on it. there are people who i used to consider my best friends who after this year i will probably never talk to.
i've made new friends and i'm sad that this is my last semester with them. i'm having so much fun i don't want it to end.
i really am considering my options for grad school again. i don't think i want to live at home. i really think i need to be on my own in my own apartment. i need my freedom.
i really feel like i know what i want and it is going to take a lot to tame me.
i'm not going to get into the things in my life that are upsetting to me because i'd rather just move past them. but all i really want to say is i'm confused on why certain people are choosing to move apart and take me for granted my last semester here. if you don't make the effort to talk to me now while i'm here we aren't going to be talking next year because i won't be here. but that is your choice. i will not make all the effort. what is sad is i don't think they even realize i'm upset about it.
but anyways. these four years have gone by so fast. i used to regret things but i realized i did things on my own time and now is the time i choose things that others choose to do before. that is fine with me.
i'm content.
it's always changing. one minute things are one way and the next they are so different. once i think i need to write an entry there isn't time and by the time there is time the facts have changed the people have changed the ideas have changed.
i sometimes don't want to write about what is going on.
i feel bi-polar in my own head. my view and outlook on life has changed so much i feel like a different person.
this last year at msu has been insane. a real roller coaster. i've gone through so many stages and phases. so much change and realizations.
this last semester will be spent with my great friends.
it's sad that there are people who always say they will come visit me and now we are down to the last semester and i don't think they ever will visit.
oh well. i'm not going to dwell on it. there are people who i used to consider my best friends who after this year i will probably never talk to.
i've made new friends and i'm sad that this is my last semester with them. i'm having so much fun i don't want it to end.
i really am considering my options for grad school again. i don't think i want to live at home. i really think i need to be on my own in my own apartment. i need my freedom.
i really feel like i know what i want and it is going to take a lot to tame me.
i'm not going to get into the things in my life that are upsetting to me because i'd rather just move past them. but all i really want to say is i'm confused on why certain people are choosing to move apart and take me for granted my last semester here. if you don't make the effort to talk to me now while i'm here we aren't going to be talking next year because i won't be here. but that is your choice. i will not make all the effort. what is sad is i don't think they even realize i'm upset about it.
but anyways. these four years have gone by so fast. i used to regret things but i realized i did things on my own time and now is the time i choose things that others choose to do before. that is fine with me.
i'm content.