The nice thing about shitty ex-boyfriends is that they supply ENDLESS writing material.
The place is secured in Allston...almost. This Wednesday my landlord will receive my deposit (oh, come on. I had to laugh at that). I just need someone with a van to help me move my things. I thought my brothers would be able to help me but goodness, I can't depend on my family. Which is said. Because they're my family.
I've been too busy with school work to sit around self-loathing, which has got me feeling great about A LOT of things:
1. I've always hated everything about my body but now I'm really into hourglass shapes (Marilyn Monroe, Beyonce, Christina Hendricks, Kim Kardashian, etc.) There were some studies that said curvier women are smarter and have smarter babies. I wish that we could live in a world in which EVERY body type was accept as beautiful because it's so true. There shouldn't be all these shape wars. I mean, yeah, my stomach bulges out but maybe I just need to lay off the cheese products. It really is true--if everyone looked the same it'd be boring.
2. School is a very positive experience for me. I'm just going to try my best and take in everything I can.
3. I've been hitting some major points in therapy. Last week was the first time my therapist actually to "remember" something that I brought up to discuss it further.
4. I even like my psychiatrist...that's a first for me. I go see her tomorrow (though I wish she would hook it up with some Kpns).
I even have had time to journal, like physically writing, though not much time to read "Naked Lunch".
I've been too busy with school work to sit around self-loathing, which has got me feeling great about A LOT of things:
1. I've always hated everything about my body but now I'm really into hourglass shapes (Marilyn Monroe, Beyonce, Christina Hendricks, Kim Kardashian, etc.) There were some studies that said curvier women are smarter and have smarter babies. I wish that we could live in a world in which EVERY body type was accept as beautiful because it's so true. There shouldn't be all these shape wars. I mean, yeah, my stomach bulges out but maybe I just need to lay off the cheese products. It really is true--if everyone looked the same it'd be boring.
2. School is a very positive experience for me. I'm just going to try my best and take in everything I can.
3. I've been hitting some major points in therapy. Last week was the first time my therapist actually to "remember" something that I brought up to discuss it further.
4. I even like my psychiatrist...that's a first for me. I go see her tomorrow (though I wish she would hook it up with some Kpns).
I even have had time to journal, like physically writing, though not much time to read "Naked Lunch".