Apr 11, 2011 21:27
It's a little late in the year, so I'll just have to call it the 2011 Resolution instead of a New Year's Resolution (which are doomed to be unfollowed, usually by this time of the year).
Things I want to be: kinder, happier, unafraid.
JC has made me cynical, and colder to the world. I've lost that quiet belief in people, gained an edge that's a little too sharp for my liking. Growing up, an exposure to the harsher realities of the world, the way age grates on you like cold steel -- it's made me someone I'm not sure I'd like to introduce to my younger self: "Hey, this is you in a few years, good luck."
There are little things I can change now -- where I am, what I've done, who I've met. But I'm going to have to go back to the start, back to where I was certain about where I was and who I was, what I wanted to be: fearless, unapologetic. It's time to collect the parts of me I left behind, and piece them back together. It's time to move forward again.
Regrets come too late and cling too tight, but even weighed down life goes on. And I promise: so will I.
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