If I asked, would you still answer yes?
I feel like I haven't really been fair to my friend.
I keep telling her, that it'll work out somehow with her ex-boyfriend, and that sooner or later, they will go back together. When in reality I wish he'd ask me out again. I mean, I think I do.nHe did ask me out along time ago but I refused. I just didn't see him i. That way at the time. He later had a long term relationship with someone else, which I didn't like very much but no way in hell that I would tell anybody. I kind of unconsciously denied the fact that I was jealous. During his relationship I ignored him. I didn't want anything to do with him and his love life I said determined but naturally I couldn't help and sometimes just catch up on things to know how they were doing. I did become friends with his girlfriend but that was just due to circumstances. I knew their relation was going bad so I was secretly happy when their relationship had ended. but now, the way I see it, they'll be together in no time. I totally support my friend but there are times when I'm caught off guard and wonder if I hadn't made a mistake when I had refused him the first time. Maybe I didn't really think it through. I was taken aback at the time so maybe I just answered him too fast ? But if I had to think about it, that would also be wrong so rationally, I did the right thing. It makes me sad that I blew my chance but even then there's a part of me who want to know for certain if I don't stand a chance at all. Should I ask?
1 October 2013