Dreamer
I had another dream last night. This one was a good one.
Occasionally I dream about things that feel *different* than a regular dream. I use to have nightmares all of the time as a child... Now, while I still have nightmares often, occasionally I'll dream about someone in a way that totally takes me off guard. I share these dreams with those people if I can remember it in detail and if I can get a hold of that person.
Last night's dream was about a friend of mine from church and high school. She was older, so when she graduated, she went on mission trips and got married and moved to another state.
I was left in high school trying to figure out my own life as I had followed in her footsteps so much. We fell out of touch... and eventually I realized (totally separate subject) that I was gay. So, I stopped trying to contact this very christian friend. I figured she would be ashamed of me, and I couldn't handle that rejection.
In last night's dream I was doing ordinary things. I was helping someone work through something. Like a doctor or something equally as helpful. I noticed her sitting in the corner unobtrusively watching. She was smiling that 'hello' smile that means you have NO CLUE what she's thinking. So I kept working, and when I was done I turned around to her, half expecting that she had sought me out, found I was gay, and came to confront me, in the name of the lord, of course. But she didn't. She just had the warmest smile and hugged me. She said it's been too long and that I should contact her. This confused me because she was standing right there... but when I woke up this morning I realized what was going on and I found her facebook profile. I sent her a message and friend request and told her I was told by a dream that it's been too long.
Impulsive, I know. But, we'll see. These dream adventures are always scary and exciting. And usually I feel like they were meant to show me what to do. Of course that sounds crazy, but I've already admitted fully to crazy, so throw in some other charges, or let me go about my business, right?
This dream was a good one so far. It's one I must follow up on.
Occasionally I dream about things that feel *different* than a regular dream. I use to have nightmares all of the time as a child... Now, while I still have nightmares often, occasionally I'll dream about someone in a way that totally takes me off guard. I share these dreams with those people if I can remember it in detail and if I can get a hold of that person.
Last night's dream was about a friend of mine from church and high school. She was older, so when she graduated, she went on mission trips and got married and moved to another state.
I was left in high school trying to figure out my own life as I had followed in her footsteps so much. We fell out of touch... and eventually I realized (totally separate subject) that I was gay. So, I stopped trying to contact this very christian friend. I figured she would be ashamed of me, and I couldn't handle that rejection.
In last night's dream I was doing ordinary things. I was helping someone work through something. Like a doctor or something equally as helpful. I noticed her sitting in the corner unobtrusively watching. She was smiling that 'hello' smile that means you have NO CLUE what she's thinking. So I kept working, and when I was done I turned around to her, half expecting that she had sought me out, found I was gay, and came to confront me, in the name of the lord, of course. But she didn't. She just had the warmest smile and hugged me. She said it's been too long and that I should contact her. This confused me because she was standing right there... but when I woke up this morning I realized what was going on and I found her facebook profile. I sent her a message and friend request and told her I was told by a dream that it's been too long.
Impulsive, I know. But, we'll see. These dream adventures are always scary and exciting. And usually I feel like they were meant to show me what to do. Of course that sounds crazy, but I've already admitted fully to crazy, so throw in some other charges, or let me go about my business, right?
This dream was a good one so far. It's one I must follow up on.