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why am i overlooked, sigh, why am i the otherguy. then again i dont like attention nvermind but i dont want to be ignored entirely. and i try my hardest to be normal but it always comes back to haunt me and i cant take it anymore i would much be alone than to be betrayed one more time. i am nearly incapable of betrayal because well look at my past.
this is my story, i was born few months later my parents divorced about a year later my mother remarried to a man my (former step dad she divorced recently) keith was his name. i looked up very much to this man being the closest father i had at the time. a few years past the fith grade now i meet a boy in my grade who becomes my only best friend (at the time) Nick Gerrace. and we only knew each other for 2 years later but we did everything together everyday cause he lived next door. then i moved (6th grade). wait i forgot to mention the fourth grade my mother got liver cirrosis and was extremely weak. this is when i relized i had more forttitude than her. and i was a loner most of my whole time i got into a few fights up intil i met Nick. Nick was like my brother and now i have no idea where he is. but 6th grade we moved i started realizing my parents had a problem, naturally i bypassed the problem. then we moved to across the street about midsymester. then i started coming up here with relatives ALOT. spending even less time with my sworn borther. and feeling even more alone at school seeing as i had no classes with nick at all and wer on diff teams. well at summer i stayed up here and enrolled here in the 7th grade. even with everyone wanted to know me i didnt want them in. and about mid simmester i removed with mom and Sdad. thats probally the only reason i went back with them now cuz i really like my step dad(dont get me wrong i love my real dad i just didnt spend a whole alot of time with him.)and for three whole weeks of being enrolled at langston chapel i only went one day. the child social services came and put me with my mima in savannah now enrolled at bartlett middle school. like i said alot of people wanted to know me but i didnt let them plus i felt more hate there then anywhere else. then a few months later aunt nesie got custody of me and i reenrolled at sebms then i realized that i might be here for a while and let a few people in. thats when i met a girl i REALLY LIKED (no not bobbyjo) will knows anyway. but then 8th grade came and im still at sebms so i let a few more people in. well kind of a mistake i was hurt a few times. and i was pretty close to killin a few people but i got numb. and the girl i liked hurt me emotionally and i was really depressed and after a while we setteld things and i got better. (she still doesnt know i like her i think). but i started making some good friends like my cousin travis, Will, Nathan, Daniel for instance. then near the end of the year i went out with bobbyjo (big mistake i think the only reason i went out with her because my hormones were screamin i guess lol). well summer showed up and my mentor died i was really depressed but i never let out. then i heard my mom was gonna die but i didnt care cause i hate her. well 9th grade came and we broke up the 1rst day of school. And i was pretty depressed because the girl i like doesnt go to seb anymore. Well during the first semmester of HS i started seeing First seargeant as a mentor. then i found out shelby liked me because i didnt want to hurt her feelings so i tryed to stay away from her to get her to lose interest.(well it didnt work i believe and i certainly didnt want her to figure out who i like cause the girl i like happens to be her best friend). then christmas break came and my mother had a seizure from the tumor she has and this time i didnt even feel hate i was completely emotionless. during the year i met a girl named tiffany man shes pretty lol srry tiff couldnt resist, and guy name Derek and who is starting to become a really good friend. well here i am now typing about my hurt for this girl so now you know the hurt the pain the love. i think the world has given me mroe than my fair share of suffering.
this is my story, i was born few months later my parents divorced about a year later my mother remarried to a man my (former step dad she divorced recently) keith was his name. i looked up very much to this man being the closest father i had at the time. a few years past the fith grade now i meet a boy in my grade who becomes my only best friend (at the time) Nick Gerrace. and we only knew each other for 2 years later but we did everything together everyday cause he lived next door. then i moved (6th grade). wait i forgot to mention the fourth grade my mother got liver cirrosis and was extremely weak. this is when i relized i had more forttitude than her. and i was a loner most of my whole time i got into a few fights up intil i met Nick. Nick was like my brother and now i have no idea where he is. but 6th grade we moved i started realizing my parents had a problem, naturally i bypassed the problem. then we moved to across the street about midsymester. then i started coming up here with relatives ALOT. spending even less time with my sworn borther. and feeling even more alone at school seeing as i had no classes with nick at all and wer on diff teams. well at summer i stayed up here and enrolled here in the 7th grade. even with everyone wanted to know me i didnt want them in. and about mid simmester i removed with mom and Sdad. thats probally the only reason i went back with them now cuz i really like my step dad(dont get me wrong i love my real dad i just didnt spend a whole alot of time with him.)and for three whole weeks of being enrolled at langston chapel i only went one day. the child social services came and put me with my mima in savannah now enrolled at bartlett middle school. like i said alot of people wanted to know me but i didnt let them plus i felt more hate there then anywhere else. then a few months later aunt nesie got custody of me and i reenrolled at sebms then i realized that i might be here for a while and let a few people in. thats when i met a girl i REALLY LIKED (no not bobbyjo) will knows anyway. but then 8th grade came and im still at sebms so i let a few more people in. well kind of a mistake i was hurt a few times. and i was pretty close to killin a few people but i got numb. and the girl i liked hurt me emotionally and i was really depressed and after a while we setteld things and i got better. (she still doesnt know i like her i think). but i started making some good friends like my cousin travis, Will, Nathan, Daniel for instance. then near the end of the year i went out with bobbyjo (big mistake i think the only reason i went out with her because my hormones were screamin i guess lol). well summer showed up and my mentor died i was really depressed but i never let out. then i heard my mom was gonna die but i didnt care cause i hate her. well 9th grade came and we broke up the 1rst day of school. And i was pretty depressed because the girl i like doesnt go to seb anymore. Well during the first semmester of HS i started seeing First seargeant as a mentor. then i found out shelby liked me because i didnt want to hurt her feelings so i tryed to stay away from her to get her to lose interest.(well it didnt work i believe and i certainly didnt want her to figure out who i like cause the girl i like happens to be her best friend). then christmas break came and my mother had a seizure from the tumor she has and this time i didnt even feel hate i was completely emotionless. during the year i met a girl named tiffany man shes pretty lol srry tiff couldnt resist, and guy name Derek and who is starting to become a really good friend. well here i am now typing about my hurt for this girl so now you know the hurt the pain the love. i think the world has given me mroe than my fair share of suffering.