love hurts
why is it that even though she hurt me so much time and time again it feels like it will hurt me even more to let her go completely? she never fallowed through with what she said she would do, and always asked forgiveness that i was overly willing to hand out just seconds later reminding her how understanding i am. she claimed me to be a constant in her life someone that she was always able to count on. count on for what? to be able to use and wipe her feet on after she was done? did she laugh at my feelings after we where done talking?
the worst part of the whole thing is that even after i told her that i didn't want to let her hold my heart anymore and that i was through with her hurting me that i still wanted to forgive her and tell her that i loved her and wanted to hold her in my arms. am i a lost cause does my loyal and caring nature hurt me so much even now? my heart grows heavy again with the image of her in my mind, and i wonder when or if a time will come that she truly stops hurting me with the very sound of her voice.
the worst part of the whole thing is that even after i told her that i didn't want to let her hold my heart anymore and that i was through with her hurting me that i still wanted to forgive her and tell her that i loved her and wanted to hold her in my arms. am i a lost cause does my loyal and caring nature hurt me so much even now? my heart grows heavy again with the image of her in my mind, and i wonder when or if a time will come that she truly stops hurting me with the very sound of her voice.