moving on

[zds]

cleaning my room today, i realized for the first time that she's not coming back. i think about her everyday and wonder where she is, where she's been, how she is, if she's married now, if she has a kid now. all of those things that wander through a person's brain when they remember someone from long ago. but today, of all days, i realized that she's not coming back. and even though she is so close physically on a daily basis, i cannot possibly return to her life because she so obviously does not want to be a part of mine. and i think that's what hurts the most, to know that for so long we have been right there near each other, yet neither will go that extra step.
so this time, for real, i took down all the pictures that had been lining my room for years, to make room for new memories. you will not be forgotten, friend, but i figure that if you've moved on... i should too.