Introspective Intercourse

[zdrifter]

I think. A lot. I'm loving the new opera music to which I was introduced because it's relaxing to have something in the background, but since I can't understand what the fuck they're saying I'm not trying to follow along. However, I'd still like to attend a performance live... I can only imagine how powerful it'd be

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[zdrifter]

Some close conversation with a friend brought this up. Lately I've been biking every free moment of every day. I exercise, now. It's hard to see a difference because it's still very new, but I've been much more conscious of my physical appearance and condition. I've also opened up myself to new forms of music... both of these changes are things I've wanted to do for quite some time and have recently finally had someone to give me that tug I needed to get going... and I'm loving every moment of it so far. There are also areas in which I'm giving her a little push, but they're different and more time-consuming, so it's understandable that the changes haven't been made. Like you said, a little bit at a time.

It's some scary shit, man. I was with the same chick for roughly 2.5 years wondering if it was even worth it to try to find someone else... now I'm pissed I didn't do this a long time ago. Things are very much different now, but I feel more me than I've felt in years and I simply can't deny that I'm loving every moment of these new shifts. Even if things don't work out romantically and we remain friends, we have certainly made some good connections.

Best of all, there's no sex yet... and I like that. Neither of us are ready to make that jump and we're straight forward about it. It's great because there's not the curiosity of whether it'll happen. We both know where we stand, so we can focus no more important things, like whether she snores. haha!