Last Final!
I just finished my last final for Jeff Lewis' History & Systems, and in Pitzer IT updating because it is THAT important and I don't want to lose this feeling.
On the short walk to IT, I was thinking to myself.. what else do I need to do? Send out my announcements, start packing up the apartment, fill out about 20 pages of paperwork for my job.. plan activities for the weekend, wash my tank... something is wrong with this picture. What happened to the "I can't go out this weekend because I have to finish this reading (or attempt to)" and the "I am sooo screwed for this 15 pager.. I need an extension" , or the "School needs to be over!" mentalities? It's actually weird that I'm even thinking I have more work to do, because this is the moment I've been waiting for ever since Welcome Week during my freshman year at Pitzer.
"College needs to be over, I want to move onto life NOW."
And now, it is a reality.
For those of you who have graduated, I don't know if you felt as strongly as I do when you realized you have turned in your last paper, finished your last final, or gave your last presentation in college. This moment still hasn't sunk in for me. It's that feeling I've wanted for so long, and now that I've experienced it, I feel kind of.. empty, but not in a negative way... more like indifferent. I'm not saying I'll miss the workload or the deadlines, but I know I will miss the ambiance of being in a classroom, having discussions, feeling like you matter, living with friends (and the late night food runs.. who said that?!)
Wait, what does this mean?
After years of making fun of people who passionately care about what they are studying, I realize after 4 years, I have become the person I've secretly envied all this time. I actually ended up loving my history of psychology class, and cognitive development also. Picking Organizational Studies and Psychology as my majors were mainly by default and out of safety, but it's liberating to know that after 4 years, I am also capable of having genuine interest in my studies as well (and not just the interest of passing).
I will most likely update again after Commencement (on Mother's Day!) and definitely before I take off to Asia for the summer. But for now.. wow. What a heavy load off my shoulders.
On the short walk to IT, I was thinking to myself.. what else do I need to do? Send out my announcements, start packing up the apartment, fill out about 20 pages of paperwork for my job.. plan activities for the weekend, wash my tank... something is wrong with this picture. What happened to the "I can't go out this weekend because I have to finish this reading (or attempt to)" and the "I am sooo screwed for this 15 pager.. I need an extension" , or the "School needs to be over!" mentalities? It's actually weird that I'm even thinking I have more work to do, because this is the moment I've been waiting for ever since Welcome Week during my freshman year at Pitzer.
"College needs to be over, I want to move onto life NOW."
And now, it is a reality.
For those of you who have graduated, I don't know if you felt as strongly as I do when you realized you have turned in your last paper, finished your last final, or gave your last presentation in college. This moment still hasn't sunk in for me. It's that feeling I've wanted for so long, and now that I've experienced it, I feel kind of.. empty, but not in a negative way... more like indifferent. I'm not saying I'll miss the workload or the deadlines, but I know I will miss the ambiance of being in a classroom, having discussions, feeling like you matter, living with friends (and the late night food runs.. who said that?!)
Wait, what does this mean?
After years of making fun of people who passionately care about what they are studying, I realize after 4 years, I have become the person I've secretly envied all this time. I actually ended up loving my history of psychology class, and cognitive development also. Picking Organizational Studies and Psychology as my majors were mainly by default and out of safety, but it's liberating to know that after 4 years, I am also capable of having genuine interest in my studies as well (and not just the interest of passing).
I will most likely update again after Commencement (on Mother's Day!) and definitely before I take off to Asia for the summer. But for now.. wow. What a heavy load off my shoulders.