(no subject)
I wonder what I really want from life, because I think it's really pointless right now. I wish i could just win the lottery or something so i don't have to put up with this whole making money, doing a 9-5 job, becoming a drone of society. I wish i was born in an earlier era, where i could live and die by the sword and dedicate my life towards one thing instead of this meaningless, aimless stumbling.
"No matter what happens I shall not lose sight of my path." - my senior quote. Man...i was so sure of myself back then, I wish i could have the same naivete that i possessed back then. Is it optimism? stupidity? faith? or strength?
I wish i could know, just for a second that my life could be dedicate toward something, not just existing. I REFUSE to just exist. If life is merely about existing, then there is no place in this world for one such as i, filled with romantic visions and childish fantasies.
Sometimes i question how meaningful for me to keep living when there's nothing worth living for except to exist.
Don't pay too much attention to this, im not suicidal...just a bit disillusioned.
"No matter what happens I shall not lose sight of my path." - my senior quote. Man...i was so sure of myself back then, I wish i could have the same naivete that i possessed back then. Is it optimism? stupidity? faith? or strength?
I wish i could know, just for a second that my life could be dedicate toward something, not just existing. I REFUSE to just exist. If life is merely about existing, then there is no place in this world for one such as i, filled with romantic visions and childish fantasies.
Sometimes i question how meaningful for me to keep living when there's nothing worth living for except to exist.
Don't pay too much attention to this, im not suicidal...just a bit disillusioned.