The Promise (Chapter 3/??)
The Promise (This Chapter: PG)
Written by ZB24
There's alternating POVs in this chapter, between Yozora and Hiroto. You should be able to tell which is which, though.
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I debated for a while about whether to go to her house or call her. Finally, I decided just to call; I probably wouldn't be able to say anything to her face anyway. It made my heart hurt when she answered; her voice was so cheerful.
"Moshi-Moshi?"
"Hi Yozora... It's Hiroto..."
"Oh hi Hiroto! I was actually about to call you, how strange!"
"Eh... Why?"
"Have you heard from Miyavi? He hasn't called me in a few day and I'm a little worried about him. He didn't answer the door when I went to his place either."
"Yozora... Uh..."
"What? What is it?"
"Miyavi... He..."
Damn, how do I say this shit!! I don't want to say it!! It's as if saying it makes this whole ordeal even more real than it already is.
"He is dead."
I winced when I heard something clatter to the floor. Then, nothing but silence.
"Ah... Yozora?" I prompted.
"When... did this happen?"
"About 15 minutes ago..."
There was more silence and I could actually hear her breathing. When she spoke again, her voice cracked.
"Whi-ch hospital??"
"Tokyo Northwest Medical."
"I... I'll be right there. You'll wait for me?"
"Yeah of course, I'll wait outside."
"Okay..Bye.."
Then the call ended. I got up and stood and the entrance of the hospital. It took her about 20 minutes to arrive since it was late at night and she lived nearby... She looked like a zombie as she approached the building; her eyes were a bit glazed and she looked like she was in shock. She didn't say anything and neither did I, I just put an arm around her shoulders and guided her into the building.
She sat on a bench while I got a hold of the doctor. I felt she should hear everything from a more qualified individual than I; I didn't know anything about diseases. He carefully explained to her what kind of disease it was how it had progressed so badly that they couldn't do anything... I watched her the whole time waiting for tears. Even I was about ready to cry and from the way Miyavi described it she should be flailing around on the floor by now. But the strange thing was that there was hardly any reaction at all.
She remained quiet, a cold unmoving appearance plastered onto her face. It was almost as if a glass wall had gone up between her and the world. A glass wall that no one could get through...
"Thank you, doctor." She said, once he finished.
The doctor just nodded and walked away.
She sighed. "Hiroto..."
I snapped to attention, "Yeah?!"
"Would you mind driving me home?"
"No, no, of course I will."
I stood up and headed out to my car as she numbly followed behind me.
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Hiroto's car was nice. Leather seats, LCD indicators on the dash, the whole shebang. I just sat there quietly while he drove he home...
It was like Hiroto didn't know what to make of me. He kept looking at me like he was expecting something different than what I was giving him.
Well, I guess if I were him I would have been surprised too.
I had thought about it before, though. "Yozora," I said to myself, "If Miyavi dies, what would you do?" My answer was, "I would sob of course! I'd be devastated..."
But now that it had actually happened...
It was like I went numb. When Hiroto told me Miyavi was gone, it was like time just stopped. I felt numb... It was cold outside, but I couldn't feel that which is why I wore no coat.
I was just void of feeling. And that scared me.
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I walked her to the door and she was about to walk inside when I remembered.
"Hey Yozora,"
She turned to face me.
"He left a letter for you."
I handed it to her and she just nodded.
"Thank you Hiroto."
"No problem, it's nothing really."
She quietly shut the door and I walked back out to my car. I considered going to the bar, to have a drink. But... Yozora had left her car at the hospital and might need me to drive her somewhere. I just when home. Not like I was gonna get any sleep, though...
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A letter. I couldn't believe Miyavi left me a letter.
I sat down on my couch and opened the envelope slowly.
Yozora,
I'm sorry that things had to end like this. I hid from you for days and probably left you worried right? Well, it's just that I couldn't let you see me like I was. I only wanted you to remember me when I was full of life, not dying. I hope you understand my intentions.
That kiss I gave you.. that wasn't a mistake or an impulse. I really do love you, only I could never say it. Maybe I was afraid or maybe becauase of who we were I gave up on the thought of being in a relationship with you... But, looking back, I should have told you my feelings. I do apologize about that...
You remember all those times when shit happened you and you would come over to my place and cry all over me and fall asleep on my couch?! Haha~ I've been there for you a lot of times right? But, I want you to know that you were there for me too. Always encouraging me and following me around. Like the time when I started Neo Visualizm; I thought it was going to be a failure, but you told me to do it anyway. Now look... I'm so grateful for you...
But... now things are coming to an end... I imagine you'll be pretty sad, although maybe not right away. Knowing you, you'll blame yourself if you're not "sad enough", but whatever you feel is fine and normal. I don't want you to blame yourself.
Here's the important part though.. Are you paying attention kid? Haha~ I've told Hiroto to look after you for me. Honestly I couldn't die unless I knew you were being taken care of. He might be kinda annoying at first, because he always does everything to the best of his ability, but don't push him away. Hiroto has your best interest at heart and he's a trustworthy person. You know how you gave me a spare key to your house? It's time to pass that on to him.
I love you very much. But, I'm gone now so if you fall in love with someone else you should be with that person.
Even when I'm not on this planet anymore, I'll continue to look after you and protect you. I love you and I'm glad to have met you. All I ask is that you never forget me and remember the things I taught you.
Love you forever,
Miyavi
Somewhere though reading it, I started crying. It was a quiet cry, coupled with a few sniffles.
My body was numb and my heart was crushed.
I laid down and before I knew it I'd fallen asleep.
Had I been able to see myself, I would have realized I was crying in my sleep.
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This wasn't my original plan for this chapter, but I think it turned out okay. I feels like the ending is missing something, but I've never been good at endings. *shrug*
Hope you liked it! Comment if you did! Comments make me write faster... (^_~)
Written by ZB24
There's alternating POVs in this chapter, between Yozora and Hiroto. You should be able to tell which is which, though.
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I debated for a while about whether to go to her house or call her. Finally, I decided just to call; I probably wouldn't be able to say anything to her face anyway. It made my heart hurt when she answered; her voice was so cheerful.
"Moshi-Moshi?"
"Hi Yozora... It's Hiroto..."
"Oh hi Hiroto! I was actually about to call you, how strange!"
"Eh... Why?"
"Have you heard from Miyavi? He hasn't called me in a few day and I'm a little worried about him. He didn't answer the door when I went to his place either."
"Yozora... Uh..."
"What? What is it?"
"Miyavi... He..."
Damn, how do I say this shit!! I don't want to say it!! It's as if saying it makes this whole ordeal even more real than it already is.
"He is dead."
I winced when I heard something clatter to the floor. Then, nothing but silence.
"Ah... Yozora?" I prompted.
"When... did this happen?"
"About 15 minutes ago..."
There was more silence and I could actually hear her breathing. When she spoke again, her voice cracked.
"Whi-ch hospital??"
"Tokyo Northwest Medical."
"I... I'll be right there. You'll wait for me?"
"Yeah of course, I'll wait outside."
"Okay..Bye.."
Then the call ended. I got up and stood and the entrance of the hospital. It took her about 20 minutes to arrive since it was late at night and she lived nearby... She looked like a zombie as she approached the building; her eyes were a bit glazed and she looked like she was in shock. She didn't say anything and neither did I, I just put an arm around her shoulders and guided her into the building.
She sat on a bench while I got a hold of the doctor. I felt she should hear everything from a more qualified individual than I; I didn't know anything about diseases. He carefully explained to her what kind of disease it was how it had progressed so badly that they couldn't do anything... I watched her the whole time waiting for tears. Even I was about ready to cry and from the way Miyavi described it she should be flailing around on the floor by now. But the strange thing was that there was hardly any reaction at all.
She remained quiet, a cold unmoving appearance plastered onto her face. It was almost as if a glass wall had gone up between her and the world. A glass wall that no one could get through...
"Thank you, doctor." She said, once he finished.
The doctor just nodded and walked away.
She sighed. "Hiroto..."
I snapped to attention, "Yeah?!"
"Would you mind driving me home?"
"No, no, of course I will."
I stood up and headed out to my car as she numbly followed behind me.
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Hiroto's car was nice. Leather seats, LCD indicators on the dash, the whole shebang. I just sat there quietly while he drove he home...
It was like Hiroto didn't know what to make of me. He kept looking at me like he was expecting something different than what I was giving him.
Well, I guess if I were him I would have been surprised too.
I had thought about it before, though. "Yozora," I said to myself, "If Miyavi dies, what would you do?" My answer was, "I would sob of course! I'd be devastated..."
But now that it had actually happened...
It was like I went numb. When Hiroto told me Miyavi was gone, it was like time just stopped. I felt numb... It was cold outside, but I couldn't feel that which is why I wore no coat.
I was just void of feeling. And that scared me.
-----
I walked her to the door and she was about to walk inside when I remembered.
"Hey Yozora,"
She turned to face me.
"He left a letter for you."
I handed it to her and she just nodded.
"Thank you Hiroto."
"No problem, it's nothing really."
She quietly shut the door and I walked back out to my car. I considered going to the bar, to have a drink. But... Yozora had left her car at the hospital and might need me to drive her somewhere. I just when home. Not like I was gonna get any sleep, though...
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A letter. I couldn't believe Miyavi left me a letter.
I sat down on my couch and opened the envelope slowly.
Yozora,
I'm sorry that things had to end like this. I hid from you for days and probably left you worried right? Well, it's just that I couldn't let you see me like I was. I only wanted you to remember me when I was full of life, not dying. I hope you understand my intentions.
That kiss I gave you.. that wasn't a mistake or an impulse. I really do love you, only I could never say it. Maybe I was afraid or maybe becauase of who we were I gave up on the thought of being in a relationship with you... But, looking back, I should have told you my feelings. I do apologize about that...
You remember all those times when shit happened you and you would come over to my place and cry all over me and fall asleep on my couch?! Haha~ I've been there for you a lot of times right? But, I want you to know that you were there for me too. Always encouraging me and following me around. Like the time when I started Neo Visualizm; I thought it was going to be a failure, but you told me to do it anyway. Now look... I'm so grateful for you...
But... now things are coming to an end... I imagine you'll be pretty sad, although maybe not right away. Knowing you, you'll blame yourself if you're not "sad enough", but whatever you feel is fine and normal. I don't want you to blame yourself.
Here's the important part though.. Are you paying attention kid? Haha~ I've told Hiroto to look after you for me. Honestly I couldn't die unless I knew you were being taken care of. He might be kinda annoying at first, because he always does everything to the best of his ability, but don't push him away. Hiroto has your best interest at heart and he's a trustworthy person. You know how you gave me a spare key to your house? It's time to pass that on to him.
I love you very much. But, I'm gone now so if you fall in love with someone else you should be with that person.
Even when I'm not on this planet anymore, I'll continue to look after you and protect you. I love you and I'm glad to have met you. All I ask is that you never forget me and remember the things I taught you.
Love you forever,
Miyavi
Somewhere though reading it, I started crying. It was a quiet cry, coupled with a few sniffles.
My body was numb and my heart was crushed.
I laid down and before I knew it I'd fallen asleep.
Had I been able to see myself, I would have realized I was crying in my sleep.
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This wasn't my original plan for this chapter, but I think it turned out okay. I feels like the ending is missing something, but I've never been good at endings. *shrug*
Hope you liked it! Comment if you did! Comments make me write faster... (^_~)