Tick tock
When did I get so old that women (!) my age are talking about their biological clocks ticking? It's one thing to see girls you graduated with in high school with 5 screaming kids in tow in the supermarket, but my own friends asking me if my biological clock is ticking yet seriously freaks me out. Um, no, my biological clock is broken due to me being ahorrible human being. Yes, I am too selfish to want to devote 100% of myself to another for 18-20 yrs. The idea never sat right with me. I give life to and devote all of myself to a little person, just so he/she can grow up and devote all of their life to yet another munchkin, and so on. Somewhere in there the purpose of life that I've defined for myself a long time ago gets lost. Sure, my uterus skips a beat (huh?) and my brain melts when I see a tiny winsy little newborn, my voice goes up in pitch, and I start making nonsensical sounds, but as soon as I turn away, BAM, the old self-involved heartless me is back.
Right now my med school friends pass around pictures of their dogs, but soon, possibly within the next year, it will be pictures of wrinkly red humans. I am just relieved that my friends from CMU are slackers even when it comes to their reproductive duties.
Right now my med school friends pass around pictures of their dogs, but soon, possibly within the next year, it will be pictures of wrinkly red humans. I am just relieved that my friends from CMU are slackers even when it comes to their reproductive duties.