Sep 01, 2006 01:41
I just found out that Nick's benefit concert is Sunday September 24. The ONLY weekend day that I can't go. I have to be here all of that day training Support Group Leaders for NAMI. Then I have to go right from there to work.
Though...now that I think of it, I suppose I can take the night off from work and catch the second half of the show. It would require leaving here when training is done at 5:30 and driving straight to The Webster. The show ends at 11pm and I would need to drive back down here right after it because it takes 3 hours to drive home and I need to run research participants at 9am on Monday.
But I *really* need the money from that night at work. If I don't get the money that some people owe me by the end of September, I don't know if I will be able to pay all of my bills. And that both scares me and pisses me off. I have been paying everyone else's bills for so long because THEY WON'T FUCKING PAY ME that now I can't pay my own. All summer I have worked my ass off to afford a new car (without having the money for the old one), rent (without my returned security deposit from the old apartment), and ridiculous phone bills because a friend of mine died while I was in Florida. And the fact that I am now getting fucked over makes no difference to anyone who still owes me money because I covered THEIR ass.
I don't know. I can't leave NJ until 5:30 and I NEED the money from work, but I want to be at this concert. Both of Nick's bands are playing. And Grey Cell Green is playing. And I would get to see his parents and some of our friends. But I'll drive 6 hours (and use a whole tank of gas) and only be there for 2. I think I will send in money for a ticket (Newington High School is creating a music scholarship in his memory)and not go.
What do you guys think I should do?