It’s always such a thrill to get fb from a writer whose fic you’ve enjoyed so I was over the moon to get this comment!
This actually took me ages to write… the prompt itself had the scope to just be pure crack, but as I toiled it became something more. And there were so many possibilities for imagining Cas going through his fall and his loss of faith since we saw so little of it onscreen, and to show how his faith really was all in Dean. I think that really is the explanation for his reaction in PONR so this story was sort of all about that too, and what led up to it. And of course the now, with Cas still being all about Dean and very needy in a way but also not really feeling able to act on it.
I’ve written BAMFtoppy!Cas but I see them both as toppy bastards. So I tried to invest the porn with a bit of push-me-pull-you in a way, with BAMF!Cas being in charge and knowing the mechanics but being sort of overwhelmed in the doing of it by its emotional aspect, and being very gentle. And Dean ends up controlling it in a way but he also is very gentle. What saps we are! Guh, what I wouldn’t give to hear Cas say make my day onscreen!
Thanks so much of your lovely comment! It made my day to see that pop up in my inbox!
This actually took me ages to write… the prompt itself had the scope to just be pure crack, but as I toiled it became something more. And there were so many possibilities for imagining Cas going through his fall and his loss of faith since we saw so little of it onscreen, and to show how his faith really was all in Dean. I think that really is the explanation for his reaction in PONR so this story was sort of all about that too, and what led up to it. And of course the now, with Cas still being all about Dean and very needy in a way but also not really feeling able to act on it.
I’ve written BAMFtoppy!Cas but I see them both as toppy bastards. So I tried to invest the porn with a bit of push-me-pull-you in a way, with BAMF!Cas being in charge and knowing the mechanics but being sort of overwhelmed in the doing of it by its emotional aspect, and being very gentle. And Dean ends up controlling it in a way but he also is very gentle. What saps we are! Guh, what I wouldn’t give to hear Cas say make my day onscreen!
Thanks so much of your lovely comment! It made my day to see that pop up in my inbox!
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