of broken hearts and raging hormones
well, i kind of feel bad.
my friend called me last night and he was very upset. he had called his exwife to be, and he regretted it. well he said he regretted it. what i have been trying to help him understand is that there are going to be a lot of ups and downs over the next months. some days are going to be fine...some days are not. and all of it is normal and ok. yesterday was a bad day for him. and it was like he was disappointed with himself for having a hard time with the situation. and i felt really bad, because i wish he could see that its normal to be sad and upset and disappointed. his marriage fell apart. it'd probably be weird if he didn't have bad days.
but...
at the same time, we've been all this before, several times. and yesterday was a bad day for me too. i don't think the baby liked the chowder i ate for lunch because from lunch on yesterday was bad. worse i've had so far. so when he called, i just really wasn't able to give him very much. i reiterated what i could, but i couldn't concentrate because i was feeling so lousy. and i feel bad because i don't want him to think that its because i don't care. i do. but, while his heart is broken, my hormones are raging and i can't control how i feel. which last night, was lousy, and therefore i really don't feel like a great friend at the moment.
but...
there's nothing i can do about it either.
i just have to hope he understands.
my friend called me last night and he was very upset. he had called his exwife to be, and he regretted it. well he said he regretted it. what i have been trying to help him understand is that there are going to be a lot of ups and downs over the next months. some days are going to be fine...some days are not. and all of it is normal and ok. yesterday was a bad day for him. and it was like he was disappointed with himself for having a hard time with the situation. and i felt really bad, because i wish he could see that its normal to be sad and upset and disappointed. his marriage fell apart. it'd probably be weird if he didn't have bad days.
but...
at the same time, we've been all this before, several times. and yesterday was a bad day for me too. i don't think the baby liked the chowder i ate for lunch because from lunch on yesterday was bad. worse i've had so far. so when he called, i just really wasn't able to give him very much. i reiterated what i could, but i couldn't concentrate because i was feeling so lousy. and i feel bad because i don't want him to think that its because i don't care. i do. but, while his heart is broken, my hormones are raging and i can't control how i feel. which last night, was lousy, and therefore i really don't feel like a great friend at the moment.
but...
there's nothing i can do about it either.
i just have to hope he understands.