yeah, i just posted this in all my blogs cuz i'm lazy
I've been sick for awhile now. Almost a month, I think. it's not a cold...it's an infection throughout my head due to my teeth being fucked up. It's kinda hard to take care of them when the fucking public aid dentist fuses them all together with metal so you can't floss....that, and a hereditary gum disease makes for some FUCKING P A I N. I took 3 vicodin last night, and still have not been to sleep. I finished the antibiotics I had here, but now the infection is coming back. I can feel it in my throat.
I don't have the money for a dentist. The last time I went to an oral surgeon before seeing a dentist first and being referred, he basically called me a retard, saying if I can afford a trip to E.R., I can afford a dentist. Bullshit. My "insurance" covers anything in ER, but ZERO for dental and eye care. He told me there was absolutely nothing wrong with my tooth and refused to pull it....and charged me 95 dollars. Three weeks later, half of the old filling fell out and took part of the tooth with it. A year later, I finally yanked it out with my bare fingers. I should have done that in the first place instead of paying almost 100 bucks to be insulted.
I can't even go to my doctor to get more antibiotics because I don't have a doctor anymore. It took me 4 fucking months to get my first appointment with him, and now he's MIA. Yeah....called to make an appointment, and he just NEVER returned to work after a vacation. Now I have to find a new doctor...and wait 3 months after making my appointment to actually see him/her.
It's fucking depressing to be in this much pain. I can't sleep, I can't eat, and I'm constantly reminded of how fucking broke I am.
I hate where I live now. I'm actually contemplating seeking legal help....if I can get information for free, or some help for dirt cheap. Our landlord STILL hasn't returned our calls from over a month ago. A couple weekends back I got woke up at 4am again, so I tapped the ceiling with a broom. My belligerent neighbor then screams "FUCK YOU, BITCH! I WILL FUCK YOU UP!" I then hear him stomp across his living room, out into the hall and down the stairs...then he fucking stands in front of my door screaming "FUCK YOU, I'LL BEAT YOUR FUCKING ASS." I hear two girls telling him to stop, be quiet, go back to his apartment...I should have opened the fucking door, but I didn't know if he had a weapon or how many people were with him because...no fucking surprise...we STILL don't have a peep hole, when we asked for one the very same day we signed our lease almost a year ago (every other apartment has a peephole and a deadbolt; we don't have a deadbolt either). The landlord won't answer our fucking calls about this incident, either. The same belligerent neighbor is her fucking maintenance man butt-buddy. Excuse the fuck out of me, but he is NEVER setting foot in my apartment. Isn't there some rule against having a violent alcoholic as your only maintenance worker, when you're supposed to be able to trust them to enter other people's apartments unsupervised? Well, I guess that wouldn't matter since NO ONE CALLS US BACK WHEN WE NEED SHIT FIXED. Fuck. 560 bucks a month for this bullshit? I don't think so. I'd rather pay a couple hundred more and have a fucking house.
Oh god...I'm rambling now because it's 8am and I haven't been to sleep. I guess I should take a shower and do some dishes.
(ok, so it's not 8am anymore...it's actually 2pm, and I still have not been to sleep)
I don't have the money for a dentist. The last time I went to an oral surgeon before seeing a dentist first and being referred, he basically called me a retard, saying if I can afford a trip to E.R., I can afford a dentist. Bullshit. My "insurance" covers anything in ER, but ZERO for dental and eye care. He told me there was absolutely nothing wrong with my tooth and refused to pull it....and charged me 95 dollars. Three weeks later, half of the old filling fell out and took part of the tooth with it. A year later, I finally yanked it out with my bare fingers. I should have done that in the first place instead of paying almost 100 bucks to be insulted.
I can't even go to my doctor to get more antibiotics because I don't have a doctor anymore. It took me 4 fucking months to get my first appointment with him, and now he's MIA. Yeah....called to make an appointment, and he just NEVER returned to work after a vacation. Now I have to find a new doctor...and wait 3 months after making my appointment to actually see him/her.
It's fucking depressing to be in this much pain. I can't sleep, I can't eat, and I'm constantly reminded of how fucking broke I am.
I hate where I live now. I'm actually contemplating seeking legal help....if I can get information for free, or some help for dirt cheap. Our landlord STILL hasn't returned our calls from over a month ago. A couple weekends back I got woke up at 4am again, so I tapped the ceiling with a broom. My belligerent neighbor then screams "FUCK YOU, BITCH! I WILL FUCK YOU UP!" I then hear him stomp across his living room, out into the hall and down the stairs...then he fucking stands in front of my door screaming "FUCK YOU, I'LL BEAT YOUR FUCKING ASS." I hear two girls telling him to stop, be quiet, go back to his apartment...I should have opened the fucking door, but I didn't know if he had a weapon or how many people were with him because...no fucking surprise...we STILL don't have a peep hole, when we asked for one the very same day we signed our lease almost a year ago (every other apartment has a peephole and a deadbolt; we don't have a deadbolt either). The landlord won't answer our fucking calls about this incident, either. The same belligerent neighbor is her fucking maintenance man butt-buddy. Excuse the fuck out of me, but he is NEVER setting foot in my apartment. Isn't there some rule against having a violent alcoholic as your only maintenance worker, when you're supposed to be able to trust them to enter other people's apartments unsupervised? Well, I guess that wouldn't matter since NO ONE CALLS US BACK WHEN WE NEED SHIT FIXED. Fuck. 560 bucks a month for this bullshit? I don't think so. I'd rather pay a couple hundred more and have a fucking house.
Oh god...I'm rambling now because it's 8am and I haven't been to sleep. I guess I should take a shower and do some dishes.
(ok, so it's not 8am anymore...it's actually 2pm, and I still have not been to sleep)