::sigh::
still ill. weather's still crappy. but i know the sun's shining in at least one of my friends' eyes. ill just bask in that light for a while. maybe it'll rub off on me. cant wait till summer. everything is finally falling into place. gonna have a great apartment with people i like. gonna have a horse. good god, im gonna own my own horse. gonna visit germany if it kills me:) everything is just working out. finally. the only thing missing is someone to share my happiness with...oh well. all in due time i suppose. (sigh) just wish it was sooner rather than later. byebye everyone.