venting about fibro fog
I realize more and more everyday what a HUGE FLAKE I AM. I am an empty headed space cadette and I HATE IT. Being that this is one of the big symptoms (and my worst symptom) of fibromyalgia, I vented to the fibromyalgia livejournal communtiy seeing that they know what it is like feeling LIKE A COMPLETE IDIOT due to fibro fog. Here was my post. Read if you are so inclined.
I feel like I don't notice half of my life.
I was downtown the other day, and I looked at a pavilion. I said to my friend, "Didn't there used to be a merry-go-round there?" My friend looked at me like what is wrong with you? He said, "It's right there. How can you not hear that obnoxious music?" It was literally RIGHT behind me and I didn't notice. To quote my mom, "My daughter wouldn't notice if there was an elephant in the room."
Is there *anything* we can do to decrease fibro fog?
I am not even kidding when I say it is literally RUINING my life. I am so frustrated right now I could cry. I LOSE everything. I lose my keys so often that my mom got me a paging device so that when I lost my keys I could press a button and they would beep. But of course I lost that. I have to get new drivers licenses like every few weeks because I lose them so much. I have had to get an emergency passport to replace my lost passport. and now I have lost that one also. I am supposed to go to the UK and work in September but I can't find my blue card *anywhere.* So now I will have to spend ridiculous amounts of money that I don't have getting replacement passports (a replacement passport for the second time) and blue cards. UGH.
AND I have a phone that my friend needs by tomorrow afternoon. His brother has been in Iraq with the national guard the past year and now he gets a 2 week break which he will spend in the UK. My friend is meeting him in Scotland. His brother is calling the phone that I am supposed to give my friend. Without this phone he will not get to see his brother who has been away at war. UGH.
AND for the next two weeks I am cat sitting but of course I have lost the keys to the owners of the cats.
Now it is 5:20am; I haven't gone to bed yet. I have been frantically tearing up my house trying to find these things. I won't sleep until I find the phone and the keys so I can take care of the cats.
I have been trying so hard to be more attentive and not be so absent minded. I have been trying to create new habits. But it is so hard to change something when you are doing it so unconsciously.
I dont even realize that things are lost until the very last minute.
I dont notice that things aren't in my hand anymore.
I really feel like I don't notice half of my life.
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I feel like I don't notice half of my life.
I was downtown the other day, and I looked at a pavilion. I said to my friend, "Didn't there used to be a merry-go-round there?" My friend looked at me like what is wrong with you? He said, "It's right there. How can you not hear that obnoxious music?" It was literally RIGHT behind me and I didn't notice. To quote my mom, "My daughter wouldn't notice if there was an elephant in the room."
Is there *anything* we can do to decrease fibro fog?
I am not even kidding when I say it is literally RUINING my life. I am so frustrated right now I could cry. I LOSE everything. I lose my keys so often that my mom got me a paging device so that when I lost my keys I could press a button and they would beep. But of course I lost that. I have to get new drivers licenses like every few weeks because I lose them so much. I have had to get an emergency passport to replace my lost passport. and now I have lost that one also. I am supposed to go to the UK and work in September but I can't find my blue card *anywhere.* So now I will have to spend ridiculous amounts of money that I don't have getting replacement passports (a replacement passport for the second time) and blue cards. UGH.
AND I have a phone that my friend needs by tomorrow afternoon. His brother has been in Iraq with the national guard the past year and now he gets a 2 week break which he will spend in the UK. My friend is meeting him in Scotland. His brother is calling the phone that I am supposed to give my friend. Without this phone he will not get to see his brother who has been away at war. UGH.
AND for the next two weeks I am cat sitting but of course I have lost the keys to the owners of the cats.
Now it is 5:20am; I haven't gone to bed yet. I have been frantically tearing up my house trying to find these things. I won't sleep until I find the phone and the keys so I can take care of the cats.
I have been trying so hard to be more attentive and not be so absent minded. I have been trying to create new habits. But it is so hard to change something when you are doing it so unconsciously.
I dont even realize that things are lost until the very last minute.
I dont notice that things aren't in my hand anymore.
I really feel like I don't notice half of my life.
.