not to be left out to dry

[zappercy]

hmmm...i deleted the comment i left her.... i suppose i'm foolish for believing such a wonderful person could find solace in me... oh well... i'm still going to have fun tomorrow regardless! it's time for me to see the dead up close and personal nothings gonna bring me down... hmmm i'm supposed to give up... i heard in a movie that a dream is only

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[aihavok]

shawn your dream wasnt stupid! you're an awesome guy and a great friend, it's just that she's not for you, that's all.

[zappercy]

the thing is i meant truly everything i ever said to her she's an angel... and i let myself get too close to her without her even knowing...it's an endless cycle but she was more beautiful than any other woman i've appreciated...i still want to come and visit but i feel really foolish...almost embarrassed...now when i come around i won't know what to say what to do how to act all that crap i just........................

[aihavok]

you should act just the same as you always did. you were fun to hang out with. i guess i didnt know how much you liked me and now i feel horrible for letting it go on for so long. im sorry....

[zappercy]

i'm going to crawl away for a while i have to think about things god i wish i just told you when i started liking you for some reason i actually got feelings that it would come back my way...your fun... alot of fun... almost like a mood altering substance which i so happily take except your not illegal... i really didn't think you'd be reading all this but eventually you would have i don't know if you read the poem i deleted it though and i'm sorry for making you feel akward at all...i just feel very very foolish...reminds me of a dead song foolish heart... heh everyone else that knew me knew how i felt about you except for you and everyone else who knew you knew how you felt about me except for me...this bites but i'll be ok