dear secret admirer
i know who you are now and i want you to know that i'm not mad at you it was just creepy knowing someone who knew so much about sarah it was almost scary... i enjoyed your thought provoking responses... actually it seemed more of a test to prove if my feelings were really feelings but she told me you weren't going to post responses anymore... keep it up i have to honestly admit that i used to look forward to what you'd say next if your not afraid to you should give me your id and i'll add you so you can read my friends only posts as well... maybe you could even put a good word in for me... btw i know that your still reading my posts your just not responding because i "spited" you... and if you'll notice that i answered your questions later... another reason i haven't told sarah all those things is because i get nervous around her and when i go to say those things i want to be so sure the words come out right and for now i'm still afraid that i'll screw it up somehow... i like sarah i can say that i like her alot so much that i'm pretty sad that she'll be going to greensboro tomorrow... i know i'll get to visit her but i won't see her everyday i used to really look forward to getting finished at work every night cause i knew that it wouldn't be long after that she'd come screaming along in her mazda ready to scoop me up and help me forget about the rest of the world... when i'm in the car with her or in a room with her or anywhere with her nothing else matters...nothing... that's the beauty of it being able to go somewhere without ever actually leaving...