How bittersweet this life can be

[zanza34]

Well today my better half has left for wake.... I miss her already and i just saw her last night. I realize its a great thing that she is going and i am very happy for her, yet there is that other side of me that does not want her out of arms reach. Its a feeling of excitement, aniexity and sadness all rolled into one..... I wish you the best of luck and no that no matter what you have my prayers support and love.... thats not going to change....ever or for anything. So many things that happen in a lifetime and its when you find the things that matter that you have to sit back and reflect on life and who you are as an individual and without you there is no way i could be heading in the direction i am now with the confidence that i have. I can never thank you enough, no one has ever seen the things you have in me and not let me give up on myself. I know it bugs you to hear my say this but its true so ill say it again, you may not realize it fully but you are needed and are a very large part of my life and who i am. No matter how busy i get there is always going to be time and a place for you in my life. As i sit here writing this i felt a lone drop fall from my eyes and hit the back of my right hand..... yea there i go crying again... everytime.... I guess im weird like that, when someone this near to me is going through a very important part of her life i want to be there in the background supporting anyway that i can. Its amazing when you find someone who is the accent to everything that you are and completes you and makes you a full person. I have never felt like my life has had much meaning but between you and God you have both confinced me otherwise. I had almost given up on my hopes of mission work and wrote myself off to doing just what other people wanted me to do.... You did not let me, and for that i am forever in your depth... Thank you soooo much. I know this has been a rough road to get to the point we are now, and i know as well as you do this is only the beginning, but im more than prepared to ride this wave all the way. I really do not know what i would do without you, it would be like losing half of me, the better one. I shall end this entry on this note. I thank God for giving me the pleasure of having you in my life and i hope He deems it worthy for you to be in it for a very very long while.

I will love you as long as this body draws breath, my sweet deity