Im back!
Well ive been out and about with family time. It was fun but one of my friends recieved news that his father was dying and i did my best to help ease his pain there but there wasnt much i could do there. He called me today and is taking it better than i can say i would be. Its been a good weekend altogether though, i cant really argue. I missed church today (sorry guys but i had other things i had to take care of and he needed me to be with him really bad) I've gotten a grand total of 6 hours of sleep. I am dreading work tomorrow that is really going to suck, but oh well. Just confused about alot at the moment and i got alot off of me this weekend so that has helped greatly as well. Im still concerned about so much, I want to help everyone with thier problems but i cant. I want to do so much but im just one person that sometimes cant carry the load i put on myself. That probably wont ever change though its my personality, i cant help it i cant stand to see others hurting and struggling. Its just me... Even though it used not to be, its who i am now. Yea i know i have hurt my fair share of people in my life, and i know more than likely i will again in the future. I do this to repay the people who have gotten me to where i am today. I cant even begin to imagine where i would be today if i had continued down the road i was traveling. There are so many people, even right now who have such a great impact on me and may not even know it, One here recently i know knows because we discussed it. I wont go into a great deal of detail here, but trust me God truly made someone special when he created you, I believe that now and will believe it until the day i die. But as time would have it i really need to finish somethings before tomorrow. I may struggle day to day, i may be unsure how to voice my emotions sometimes but when i do, thats what they are no strings attached... And as much as i would like to do more i cant, I just need to give more to God and always remember with Him anything is possible. Later and God bless.