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driving while extremely tired is not a good idea. I was really scared I wasn't gonna make it home. the combination of jolt, ciggarettes, and McDonalds made me feel sick as all get out.
So i went to a party over the weekend, i was angry as hell earlier in the day because of mark dawdling. I had wanted to leave at about noon, and I had expressed this opinion, well after all that had gone on I didn't get on the road til about 2:30. Hans - 2 1/2 hours of no emily + riding in the car with mark = angry smoking Hans. Your basic algebra. But the moment I saw her, bam, I was fine. Maybe I do fall in love to fast, and maybe I'm addicted to the chemicle feeling of love. but I don't care, I love it, I love her. Though tis only been a short amount of time, and the distance, I'd say it's going extremely well. And seeing how this lacks a time frame, we decided that halloween shall be our aniversary date, easy to remember and fun, plus candy! So the party was fine, very cold, but we went on a hay ride. Kim was there, she was...well out of it, but she seems alright. Her life sounds pretty fucked up. Count your blessings. Plenty of drunks as usual, but hey whatever, I was there for her, not them. so we ended up sleeping there in Heathers room, Heather and Jack were there too on the bed. we were on the floor...sleeping on plywood doesn't feel to great, being a tease on the other hand does. :D night passes, next day we go back to emilys house for her sisters b-day party. I was a tidbit nerveous about meeting all of the family, but figured they'd be cool, and I have met the before. I think they like me, which I like, they're really out there, which I love. Hooray for food too, I didn't realize how hungry I was. So the party goes on, chubaka danced, and fun was had. we watched a movie, a bit of mingling, her grandma called me joe..akward..and joe had called and said emily can come pick up her stuff. Which we did go out and get. He's got me feeling guilty, he had asked me not to pursue anything with her, but it was a bit late by then. I respect him, and I know how he feels, but I can't really go about changing all this. so after that party, we layed down on the couch for a while and she feel alseep on my chest. Bliss. So i poked her in the face. we hung out a bit more in the basement, then she had gotten a voice mail message from some girl named Nikki, joe's new girl, saying that joe didn't need her anymore and that she didn't need to bother showing up for bowling. Bitch. Emily looked upset, more angry than hurt really, but calling back yelling isn't gonna help. We went out to my car and had a cigarette. Talked a bit, kissed a bit...well I don't need to really say what happened, but I am glad it did. I love it, and she did too, we are happy, and actually slept a bit too. 12 turns to 1, 1 turns to 1:45 which turns to 2 and at almost 3 I finally left. I was tired, I grabbed some gas and talked to sara a bit, I feel bad for not hanging out with her, but hey, I can only do so much. I got some Jolt and some McDonalds. Jolt + McDonalds Breakfast + 2 camel filters = bleeehhhh. I was yelling as I was driving, I could hear myself and I sounded drunk. I had to pull over and take a short nap, about an hour. I was terrified at one point because I almost hit a wall. but I did get home safe...at 6:30 am. I didn't go to class today, why? fuck it, thats why, it's just Strategies, which Is online and all i have to do is log onto the server once a week. I have work at 1 I believe, but I can't seem to find my schedual. I need to apply at UPS as soon as possible. I don't really like Best Buy all that much.
So all in all it was a good weekend. 2 Parites, and over 24 hours of emily. Halloween is our day, and though I feel like I'm ready to puke up that McDonalds, I feel just fine. She is perfect, and the waiting times in between seeing her seem endless. But I shall see her again in due time. <3
So i went to a party over the weekend, i was angry as hell earlier in the day because of mark dawdling. I had wanted to leave at about noon, and I had expressed this opinion, well after all that had gone on I didn't get on the road til about 2:30. Hans - 2 1/2 hours of no emily + riding in the car with mark = angry smoking Hans. Your basic algebra. But the moment I saw her, bam, I was fine. Maybe I do fall in love to fast, and maybe I'm addicted to the chemicle feeling of love. but I don't care, I love it, I love her. Though tis only been a short amount of time, and the distance, I'd say it's going extremely well. And seeing how this lacks a time frame, we decided that halloween shall be our aniversary date, easy to remember and fun, plus candy! So the party was fine, very cold, but we went on a hay ride. Kim was there, she was...well out of it, but she seems alright. Her life sounds pretty fucked up. Count your blessings. Plenty of drunks as usual, but hey whatever, I was there for her, not them. so we ended up sleeping there in Heathers room, Heather and Jack were there too on the bed. we were on the floor...sleeping on plywood doesn't feel to great, being a tease on the other hand does. :D night passes, next day we go back to emilys house for her sisters b-day party. I was a tidbit nerveous about meeting all of the family, but figured they'd be cool, and I have met the before. I think they like me, which I like, they're really out there, which I love. Hooray for food too, I didn't realize how hungry I was. So the party goes on, chubaka danced, and fun was had. we watched a movie, a bit of mingling, her grandma called me joe..akward..and joe had called and said emily can come pick up her stuff. Which we did go out and get. He's got me feeling guilty, he had asked me not to pursue anything with her, but it was a bit late by then. I respect him, and I know how he feels, but I can't really go about changing all this. so after that party, we layed down on the couch for a while and she feel alseep on my chest. Bliss. So i poked her in the face. we hung out a bit more in the basement, then she had gotten a voice mail message from some girl named Nikki, joe's new girl, saying that joe didn't need her anymore and that she didn't need to bother showing up for bowling. Bitch. Emily looked upset, more angry than hurt really, but calling back yelling isn't gonna help. We went out to my car and had a cigarette. Talked a bit, kissed a bit...well I don't need to really say what happened, but I am glad it did. I love it, and she did too, we are happy, and actually slept a bit too. 12 turns to 1, 1 turns to 1:45 which turns to 2 and at almost 3 I finally left. I was tired, I grabbed some gas and talked to sara a bit, I feel bad for not hanging out with her, but hey, I can only do so much. I got some Jolt and some McDonalds. Jolt + McDonalds Breakfast + 2 camel filters = bleeehhhh. I was yelling as I was driving, I could hear myself and I sounded drunk. I had to pull over and take a short nap, about an hour. I was terrified at one point because I almost hit a wall. but I did get home safe...at 6:30 am. I didn't go to class today, why? fuck it, thats why, it's just Strategies, which Is online and all i have to do is log onto the server once a week. I have work at 1 I believe, but I can't seem to find my schedual. I need to apply at UPS as soon as possible. I don't really like Best Buy all that much.
So all in all it was a good weekend. 2 Parites, and over 24 hours of emily. Halloween is our day, and though I feel like I'm ready to puke up that McDonalds, I feel just fine. She is perfect, and the waiting times in between seeing her seem endless. But I shall see her again in due time. <3