"OMG!! SHE FINALLY UPDATED?!?!"
[[[WORD OF CAUTION: If you are in a really happy/chipper/hyper/cheerful kind of mood, you might not want to continue reading…]]]
Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Life is impatiently tapping it's foot, waiting for me to do something. To seize something. To make something. And yet, I cannot. I am stuck in a mud full of doubts and fears. What if I fail? Am I good enough? How can I ever....? A head full of questions with no answers. I made Life very angry, "YOU ARE WASTING ME!!", it shouts. I know. And I'm sorry. But I'm trying, don't you see? I'm trying to walk out of this mud with clean shoes. Maybe I need someone to pull me out.
I watch helplessly as strangers pass me by. My mom. My dad. But they do not see that I am slowly sinking and so, they walk away. The mud is getting thicker. I have to get out. Now. I see my friends and I try to call out. But Shame wrap it's ugly hand around my throat. I'm choking...then suddenly, I'm not. My friends are gone. And I am still here.
Tears roll down my eyes and I give in to Self-Pity. Just before this new monster open it's mouth to consume me, I hear a voice.
"You are going to lose me", Opportunity says.
"NO!!! Please...wait for me..".
"I'm sorry but it's far too late. I have to go see young Billy and he's free. Unlike you", Opportunity disappears into the horizon.
Now that Opportunity is gone, there is no light in the rooms of my Life. I will soon become part of darkness that surrounds me.
To Myself: I'm sorry I failed you.
Explanation: I was talking to this friend/(cousin?) of mine on msn...and she sent me this piece of writing...i asked her where she got it from and she was all, "i can't tell you that"...which makes me think she wrote it herself...anyway... i thought it would post it up for your reading enjoyment...and it's kinda appropriate considering we just got our report cards.
Yea. Report Cards. Two most dreaded words in the history of all words.
Don't wanna talk about it.