Why do I only make entries when I'm practically falling over from exhaustion?
1) Got back from my uncle's place in Johore a few days ago. It was a nice change of pace, I guess. Johore may be just about an hour away by car but it is still another country. Did a bit of shopping (argh I wish I wasn't so broke), had a barbecue on my uncle's front yard, and sat inside to read. A lot. There wasn't really much to do there, actually. It's kind of suburban there, it's hard to get around without someone driving us around, and there was no Internet, so being the city brat that I am I was monumentally bored most of the time. Or would have been, if I hadn't brought Marion Zimmer Bradley's Saga of the Renunciates trilogy omnibus with me (a decent read, by the way, about a group of women in an Amazon-like society, except not everyone's a warrior). Finished it in three days. My cousins were for some reason freaked by this (come on guys, it's only a little over a thousand pages).
2) I've been doing a pretty good job of forgetting the fact that I need to get a freakin' job. I've been reading, watching movies (Ponyo was nice, Lisa was a hilariously tsundere mom...I want to learn how to transmit "BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA" in morse code). I've also spend my nights caught up in a six-year-old Xbox game(not even a 360, just an Xbox). Meh. Someday I'm going to be able to afford a not-completely-obsolete console and buy games upon release rather than looking at them and thinking "Oh cool, that looks like something I'd like to play. Hopefully within three years time."
3) I was at New Year's barbecue with the silat team at Amirah's place earlier. I actually left way before midnight though, haha. Maybe I should have taken Amirah's invitation to stay over...but I was tired, and Na'im's offer of a ride home seemed too good to pass up (it would have been a very long train ride otherwise). Well, it's not like I really care about the countdown anyway. Just wanted to hang out with my (mostly) conservative Malay teammates at a small party where the strongest drink being served was Pokka green tea and the most outrageous thing that happened would probably be Yusri's dancing to Maneater during his turn at Dance Central. I quite literally fell over lolling. Yes, parties can still be fun without anybody getting drunk.
And HOLY CRAP I WANT A KINECT. So. Much. Fun. Even if there will be a rather embarrassing video of me on Facebook tomorrow...Is it my fault I've never had to move my hips like that before?
4) On a more serious note...I seem to be frighteningly out of touch with reality. I've been stumbling around in a daze, with no sense of direction. For so many years my life has been a repetition of school-vacation-school-vacation-school, but now that I've officially graduated and the pattern that dominated my life has been disrupted, I don't quite know what to do with myself. The obvious thing, naturally, is 'get a job' but I don't have a clue where to start. I'm not sure what I want to do, or if that should even be a consideration at this stage -- I'll probably end up having to take any decently-paying job I can get, there's too much weighing on me for me to tarry till I find something I know I'll like. Especially considering the fact that what I want and the qualifications I have are completely disparate.
I've been suddenly tossed into the real world and I don't feel like I'm equipped to handle it. I'm not really an adult, I seem to be more of an overaged kid.
Maybe I just need a little bit of time to let this sink in, get used to it...But I can't afford to sit around on my ass for too long.
5) Oh, Happy New Year.
2) I've been doing a pretty good job of forgetting the fact that I need to get a freakin' job. I've been reading, watching movies (Ponyo was nice, Lisa was a hilariously tsundere mom...I want to learn how to transmit "BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA" in morse code). I've also spend my nights caught up in a six-year-old Xbox game(not even a 360, just an Xbox). Meh. Someday I'm going to be able to afford a not-completely-obsolete console and buy games upon release rather than looking at them and thinking "Oh cool, that looks like something I'd like to play. Hopefully within three years time."
3) I was at New Year's barbecue with the silat team at Amirah's place earlier. I actually left way before midnight though, haha. Maybe I should have taken Amirah's invitation to stay over...but I was tired, and Na'im's offer of a ride home seemed too good to pass up (it would have been a very long train ride otherwise). Well, it's not like I really care about the countdown anyway. Just wanted to hang out with my (mostly) conservative Malay teammates at a small party where the strongest drink being served was Pokka green tea and the most outrageous thing that happened would probably be Yusri's dancing to Maneater during his turn at Dance Central. I quite literally fell over lolling. Yes, parties can still be fun without anybody getting drunk.
And HOLY CRAP I WANT A KINECT. So. Much. Fun. Even if there will be a rather embarrassing video of me on Facebook tomorrow...Is it my fault I've never had to move my hips like that before?
4) On a more serious note...I seem to be frighteningly out of touch with reality. I've been stumbling around in a daze, with no sense of direction. For so many years my life has been a repetition of school-vacation-school-vacation-school, but now that I've officially graduated and the pattern that dominated my life has been disrupted, I don't quite know what to do with myself. The obvious thing, naturally, is 'get a job' but I don't have a clue where to start. I'm not sure what I want to do, or if that should even be a consideration at this stage -- I'll probably end up having to take any decently-paying job I can get, there's too much weighing on me for me to tarry till I find something I know I'll like. Especially considering the fact that what I want and the qualifications I have are completely disparate.
I've been suddenly tossed into the real world and I don't feel like I'm equipped to handle it. I'm not really an adult, I seem to be more of an overaged kid.
Maybe I just need a little bit of time to let this sink in, get used to it...But I can't afford to sit around on my ass for too long.
5) Oh, Happy New Year.