I don't believe this...
It is annoying, to say the least, when you finally work up the courage to tell the guy you've been seeing for the past for years that you're sick of the fact that for the past year you see him about, once, twice a month (if you're lucky) despite the fact that you both live on the same freaking tiny country and that you think that this isn't working out, he asks you what's wrong and tells you that you can tell him anything because you're the biggest priority in his life.
And all that courage you've painstakingly gathered just goes...kaput.
T_T
I am a bloody, craven, spineless coward.
Damn it, what am I going to do with you?! I can't even fault you for being a jerk, because you aren't. I know it's not your fault that national service is taking up your entire life. But it kills me that every time after a date, I have to watch you leave and wonder when the hell I'm going to get to see you again, or if you can even find the time to call me this week. I care for you, but...I guess it's not enough. I don't want to live with this. I'd rather be alone.
And dammit, I'm actually relating to MCR's "I Don't Love You". That's a clear sign that I'm turning emo.
Ugh. So not the serious discussion of my feelings that I was aiming for...
And all that courage you've painstakingly gathered just goes...kaput.
T_T
I am a bloody, craven, spineless coward.
Damn it, what am I going to do with you?! I can't even fault you for being a jerk, because you aren't. I know it's not your fault that national service is taking up your entire life. But it kills me that every time after a date, I have to watch you leave and wonder when the hell I'm going to get to see you again, or if you can even find the time to call me this week. I care for you, but...I guess it's not enough. I don't want to live with this. I'd rather be alone.
And dammit, I'm actually relating to MCR's "I Don't Love You". That's a clear sign that I'm turning emo.
Ugh. So not the serious discussion of my feelings that I was aiming for...